Daily Reflections reading May 19th
Given Without Strings
And
he well knows that his own life has been made richer, as an extra dividend of
giving to another without any demand for a return. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 69
The
concept of giving without strings was hard to understand when I first came into
the program. I was suspicious when others wanted to help me. I thought, “What
do they want in return?” But I soon learned the joy of helping another
alcoholic and I understood why they were there for me in the beginning. My
attitudes changed and I wanted to help others. Sometimes I became anxious, as I
wanted them to know the joys of sobriety, that life can be beautiful. When my
life is full of a loving God of my understanding and I give that love to my
fellow alcoholic, I feel a special richness that is hard to explain.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on May 19th Reading
What I get by given with out strings is a
life free of fear and anger, the more I give the more I am free from myself,
the more I try to give this away the more I receive back, going on commitments
to share experience strength and hope
I can't think of a better way to give
back what was so freely given to me, I am grateful for this program and all of
the steps, they helped me walk thru my fears and hopelessness, to find a new
way of life with out the booze
I had to look into my past ways, it was
hard to walk thru all the hopelessness and despair, the fear was so great I
knew I needed help to do this, thank God for my sponsors help, my past is a
reminder of my old way of life and will always remind me how much I had to
change
And how important it is to freely give
all this back to those who are willing to start over, this is where I will not
take any unacceptable behaviors from anyone, family, or friends, I will not
take any abuse from anyone today I have to accept others are not always nice
Some also have the right not to recover
from this fatal disease, they have the same choices I had like our son on life
support in 2003 and left AMA lasted about 11 months doing it on he own, he went
into hospital 2005 bleeding out again and now needs a liver transplant
He had to have an operation to stop the
bleeding in the veins in his esophagus’s and he still did not want to go to AA
for help, he is doing it his way again we learned when he went to visit our
daughter in Ohio he once again started to drink
This is one of the hardest thing I have
ever had to take in my life, not being able to give it to him, so I can do is
pray for him and ask that God's will be done for him, God has given many
opportunities to help others to find hope from their disease
I show how grateful I am by passing this
forwards, gratitude is action not just a word we hear around the halls, God
will keep given me the tools to reach out to others, He sure has given me a
life full of hope love and understanding I am most grateful of all that He
forgave me and taught me how to forgive others
God bless you Al M
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