Daily
Reflections reading May 9th
Walking Through Fear
If
we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be
willing. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 76
When
I had taken my Fifth Step, I became aware that all my defects of character stemmed
from my need to feel secure and loved. To use my will alone to work on them
would have been trying obsessively to solve the problem. In the Sixth Step I
intensified the action I had taken in the first three Steps — meditating on the
Step by saying it over and over, going to meetings, following my sponsor’s
suggestions, reading and searching within myself. During the first three years
of sobriety I had a fear of entering an elevator alone. One day I decided I
must walk through this fear. I asked for God’s help, entered the elevator, and
there in the corner was a lady crying. She said that since her husband had died
she was deathly afraid of elevators. I forgot my fear and comforted her. This
spiritual experience helped me to see how willingness was the key to working
the rest of the Twelve Steps to recovery. God helps those who help themselves.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on May 9th Reading
Fear ruled my life for far to many years
but I would not ever let anyone know I had any fear after all it was my big
secret when anyone did anything to me my reactions were to show no fear by smiling
and laughing it all off
The more I hurt the deeper I went into
the bottle, until even the bottle became my enemy, that was my bottom and where
I had to learn how to hurt, I had to learn about feelings and be able to share
the feelings I had honestly and openly to a good friend who became my sponsor
Fear is what kept me from picking up
another drink in the beginning of recovery, I don't believe fear is a lack of
faith, some fears are very healthy and should be felt, faith is the tool I
picked up in order to recognize the fear and walk on thru it
Fears of failure, in recovery has been
taken away when I turned everything over to God, fears are just other feelings
I have learned how to deal with working thru the 12 steps, acceptance in the
big book tells me how to change my behaviors and attitudes about things
After all nothing is perfect and I sure
do have my moments that suck and I feel I have failed, but I do not have to
dwell on them and if it is something I can't change then I ask for the
serenity, to accept what God has given me today, after all He still has the big
picture of my life not me
We all have tragic things happening in
our lives at times and we have the right to feel the sadness but we also need
to move on with our lives walk thru the fears with-out picking up that drink,
AA did not promise me a perfect world, but it did give me a tool chest full of
tools to deal with anything
What I want in life would be a perfect
world where there is no pain or suffering, but I am human and know that others
will always be doing things that do not fit into my plans, fear can stop me in
my tracks if I continue with the kicking and screaming
I need to accept the things I can't
change with the serenity God has bless me with, God has given me choices today,
I choose to do His will and not let fear cause me to fail in anything I try, I
was told early on in the program you can never fail at anything in life until
you stop trying
So I just keep my faith in God and do the
next right thing when times are hard for me, God has not given me more than I
can handle in anyone day, so today I has succeeded because I did not fine it
necessary to pick up a drink and I still have my life
God bless you Al M
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