Daily
Reflections reading January 6th
The Victory of Surrender
We
perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps
toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally
turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21
When
alcohol influenced every facet of my life, when bottles became the symbol of
all my self-indulgence and permissiveness, when I came to realize that, by
myself, I could do nothing to overcome the power of alcohol, I realized I had
no recourse except surrender. In surrender I found victory – victory over my
selfish self-indulgence, victory over my stubborn resistance to life as it was
given to me. When I stopped fighting anybody or anything, I started on the path
to sobriety, serenity and peace.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on January 6th Reading
Surrendering myself to a Higher Power is a big step, trust
had not been one of my strong points then I came to step three it said “we made
a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we
understood Him"
The idea of a Higher Power who actually cared for me was
just not in my belief system, I needed that starting place, the idea of simply
making a decision to turn over my life to this higher power, the higher power I
had at first was the group of drunks
I met at the meetings I started to go to, they all seemed to
have this elusive faith and victory over alcohol I was trying to find, they
showed me the way to turn my life and will over to the care of the God they all
knew, who was an all loving and forgiven God
Well I started to give this Higher Power some lip service,
it took time with a lot of honesty and humility to even start to have a little
faith, God did not want perfect faith from me, only a willingness to try to do
my part the trusting in some thing I could not see, nor at that time feel
Faith is knowing what is beyond my knowledge, seeing what is
beyond my sight, faith is a feeling I acquired by practicing and seeing the
wonders God has preformed, I wanted to know how to work the program fear would
stop me every time
I found the faith to over come the fears, I had to look at my
own life in a different light, what I was going through give me faith in how to
work the program, it helped me see what my personal needs were, where my faults
are and how to correct them
There is another view of my life if I can only learn to read
the signs, when there are no signs and all is darkness like my past, that's
when faith is needed, it doesn't matter whether my life was falling apart I
know it needed changing and I now have the faith, God is putting my life back
together
If I work the
program one day at a time without worrying about the outcome, I will come through
this and have victory over my powerlessness I needed to be grateful to accept
my gifts, as well as my struggles, faith helps me do this
My God seeks to teach and show me the truth; God knows I
have the means to be happy within me
Today rather than blame my God for not being there, I will
seek the truth, faith tells me who left who
I know that I am where I'm supposed to be I made the
decision to turn it over to His loving care
Sometimes it's very hard to believe that God knows what He's
doing, I was told to stop trying to control everything, then wait and watch for
the good things to start happening, God's timetable is not the same as mine
What is asked is that I learn to believe without seeing, to
trust, I pray for the faith to go the distance like a child leaping into a
parent's arms, I know that l am too precious for God to drop me, faith is for
me that Fantastic Adventure of Trusting Him for what I need
I have turned my worries and fear over to God its in his
care. Fear knocked on my the Door Faith answered, no-one was there remember
when fears knocks on your door let God answer it, then you will also know the
victory over powerlessness
God bless you Al M
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