Daily Reflections reading October 13th
Unremitting Inventories
Continue to watch for selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear. When these crop up, we ask God at once to remove them. We discuss them with someone immediately and make amends quickly if we have harmed anyone. Then we resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help. Alcoholics Anonymous Page 84
The immediate admission of wrong thoughts or actions is a tough task for most human beings, but for recovering alcoholics like me it is difficult because of my propensity toward ego, fear and pride. The freedom the A.A. program offers me becomes more abundant when, through unremitting inventories of myself, I admit, acknowledge and accept responsibility for my wrong – doing. It is possible then for me to grow into a deeper and better understanding of humility. My willingness to admit when the fault is mine facilitates the progression of my growth and helps me to become more understanding and helpful to others.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on October 13th Reading
Unremitting inventories well my fourth step and my eighth
had to be unremitting in order to get all my defects on paper, as well as all
those amend I had to make coming into the ninth step I just had to be completely
honest as to who I made the amends too
Should I expect amends from those that have hurt me, well
not really, it would be nice if I did get
amends, but Inventories are dealing with cleaning up my side
of the street, not demanding or expecting anything in return
Not everyone has the steps to a new way of life, this is
where live and let live comes in, theses are
not someone else’s amends they are mine, I make mistakes
every day and again I have step ten inventory to help me deal with them
What does the normal person have to fall back on, I was
taught to make amends for me to become a better person, to trust that God is
going to take care of the rest, as long as I stay open to His will on a daily
basis, not just in a crisis like in the past
I learn how to forgive others, so I could move on with my
new way of life, today what others have done to me is in their hands not mine,
if they make amends I wound accept them gladly, if they did not make amends I
would still forgive them
Forgiveness does not mean I accepted their unacceptable
behavior, nor does it mean I have to
face to face forgive them, what this forgiveness does is
free me from the bonds these people had on me, it frees my mind of the anger
and resentments I had carried for so long
God gave me the power thru forgiveness, to change my attitude
towards life, to a respectable
person, that’s all I need in terms of amends from others who
have in some way hurt me, I also had to look at how I may have hurt them, after
all this is still about my inventories
We all would like people to make amends to us, but reality
is that some times they were so grave that we need not see these people again,
so I forgave them for me, and made all of the amends I had to make to family
friends and many other in my life
Unremitting Inventories are never ending we all have to be vigilant
about what we say or do on a daily basis and sometimes we need to make more amends
we left out of our first inventories either by not remembering them or not
wanting to make them at that time
Today I thank God and my sponsor for their help and the
wisdom they gave my thru working the
steps, the teachings of the twelve steps, the help of God,
my sponsor and the people in the fellowship guided me in the direction for
peace and love for all
God bless you Al M
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