Daily
Reflections reading January 5th
Total Acceptance
He
cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life
either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do.
He will be at the jumping-off place. He will wish for the end. ALCOHOLICS
ANONYMOUS, p.152
Only
an alcoholic can understand the exact meaning of a statement like this one. The
double standard that held me captive as an active alcoholic also filled me with
terror and confusion: “If I don’t get a drink I’m going to die,” competed with
“If I continue drinking it’s going to kill me.” Both compulsive thoughts pushed
me ever closer to the bottom. That bottom produced a total acceptance of my
alcoholism – with no reservations whatsoever – and one that was absolutely
essential for my recovery. It was a dilemma unlike anything I had ever faced,
but as I found out later on, a necessary one if I was to succeed in this
program.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on January 5th Reading
Total acceptance in my recovery was detachment from the
problems of my life and needed to be done, faced with drastic life style
changes anyone can be overwhelmed, recovery is a process, a decision, making it
possible to accept living in a completely different life style
Living one day at a time gave me the opportunity to make
changes in just twelve steps, I like most others have been the victim of many
unjust conditions in early childhood, and I had not known or experienced the
real meaning of love as normal people do
I know people who have been physically, mentally, as well as
spiritually abused, to the point where they believed this abuse was love, they
became victims of their caretakers and thru the use and abuse of alcohol and
drugs, also became victims of themselves
The instinct is to deny responsibility for most conflicts in
which they find themselves, this can warp personalities and alter lives for the
worst, with out a lot of help, like from sponsors, some have less than an
average chance to recover from their disease
Change is an absolute, we need to be sure that everyone has
the same chance to learn how to have a useful and peaceful life, with Gods
help, the help of the fellowship we all can give them this chance to live
helping them thru the 12 steps to a new way of life
I had to find the honesty to accept the truth about myself,
make the amends to all, I had to get out of myself and out of your way so you
could help me recover, I was told that God does not make Junk, but I sure made
Junk out of what He gave me
With Gods help I am able to functions as a human being, with
out the use of alcohol, because we all share this common bond, I am no longer
alone in my head and thoughts, I am no longer a victim of myself, or anyone
else, because others showed me the way out
Today I have real friends who care about me and are willing
to help me day or night, this bond goes both ways, I can be there for others
who are hurting like I was, because of people like you, I learned when I was
and when I was not the victim of things
Most of the time I was the one to victimize all around me to
get my own selfish ways, until AA I do not think I had any freedom from myself,
no real feeling about how to live, today I have the freedom to choose how I
want to live and have a choice every morning
I became willing to change myself, accept my part of the
mess I caused in my disease, I did need to clean up the wreckage of my past, I sure
had a big street to clean, I have the freedom to accept my life turning my will
over to Gods care gave me freedom
God bless you Al M
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