Daily Reflections reading November 20th
Thy Will, Not Mine
when making specific requests, it will be well to add to each one of them this qualification. .” . . . if it be Thy will.” TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, pp. 102-03
I ask simply that throughout the day God place in me the best understanding of His will that I can have for that day, and that I be given the grace by which I may carry it out. As the day goes on, I can pause when facing situations that must be met and decisions that must be made, and renew the simple request: “Thy will, not mine, be done.” I must always keep in mind that in every situation I am responsible for the effort and God is responsible for the outcome. I can “Let Go and Let God” by humbly repeating: “Thy will, not mine, be done.” Patience and persistence in seeking His will for me will free me from the pain of selfish expectations.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on November 20th Reading
AA was founded
partly on the four absolutes, Of honesty, Purity, UN-Selfishness, and Love, Dr
Bob was great on letting people know its not a selfish program its to be given
away, YET! Selfishness seems to be the most prevailing defect that I had when I
got to the halls
I came to get
my family back, not to get sober, I thought if my ex thought I was trying to
change she would want me back and everything in my little world would just be
great again, but that was just a very selfish way I was thinking about, neither
what I wanted nor what others wanted
She did ask me
to leave went something like this get the hell out I do not want you near me, I
have not loved you for the past two years and I will not stay with you out of
pity, well the Ego sure was crushed so I did the only thing I knew how to do, I
went out and got drunk
This drunk
lasted about eight months and in that time I just wanted to die because, no one
cared, really they cared, but sure were not going to put up with anymore BS
from a drunk, they were just sick and tired of trying to please me and did not
want to walk on eggshells anymore
Thank God when
I tried to kill myself it was a feeble attempt, it was a wake up call for me to
change, so when I got here my selfish attitude came along for the ride thank
God it changed, this program taught me its not about little old Me but
unselfishly about We
I learned a
lot about what God wanted from me, it was to change my selfish attitudes, learn
how I could apply the knowledge into my daily life, to started to care about
other people and learned the more unselfish I had become, the more real true
friends I had in recovery
They helped me
see all the defects of character I had, but more important they showed me how
to rid myself of these defects, with the help of my higher power THY WILL NOT
MINE He gave me a second chance at learning how to live, how to use His help in
turning over my life to his care
To do His will
not my own, AA has given me God and God has given me the meaning of life,
living it un-selfishly helping whenever I can another sick and suffering human
being like myself
God bless you
Al M
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