Daily
Reflections reading October 3rd
Serenity After The Storm
Someone who knew what he
was talking about once remarked that pain was the touchstone of all spiritual
progress. How heartily we A.A. 's can agree with him. . . .
TWELVE
STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS. Pp. 93-94
When on the roller coaster of emotional
turmoil, I remember that growth is often painful. My evolution in the A.A.
program has taught me that I must experience the inner change, however painful,
that eventually guides me from selfishness to selflessness. If I am to have
serenity, I must step my way past emotional turmoil and its subsequent
hangover, and be grateful for continuing spiritual progress
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on October 3rd Reading
I
arrived at the doors of AA feeling totally hopeless, in turmoil over a past
riddled with emotional pain to me far worst than physical pain, I did not think
life was worth living, I was going to kill myself by hitting a tree on a
winding road, where my son’s father had died just to get even with my wife
To give
her guilt that she lost two men at that very tree, this is when God took over
and guided me to a path of selflessness, to think I almost died just to get
even, because she did not love me or want me near her ever again, thank God I
did stop in time, I never thought of anyone but me
Took a
long time to get of that roller coaster ride I was on, I kept going to AA
meetings and listened to speaker after speaker, say that they got back into the
big bed, their wives had forgiven them every thing in their lives has changed
I was
told if I go to enough meeting I will at some point hear my story being told
but someone speaking, I really did not believe this, till one night a man got
up and told my story, it was then I did not feel alone, I was given some hope
It took
a lot of time to surrender completely to a power greater than myself, I never
though there was a power greater than the great Al, I was God, I played the
roll real good until everyone left me in the dust, nobody wanted a drunk around
them
The only
way I was ever going to get any serenity was by surrendering completely to that
power greater than myself, today I call that Power God, He is the one in
control of my will, that being said I do take my will back a lot of times
After all
I am human and I like to think at times I still have some control over what I what
in life, but some times what I really want today is not real healthy for me, so
God say no you can’t have that anymore He does this thru all you people sharing
at meetings
Serenity
is a state of mind a peace with in myself, only I can give up this serenity to
others if I let them get to me, I love the acceptance on page 449 04 417 in the
fourth edition nothing absolutely nothing happens in Gods world by mistake
But I
have to tell you not much was right in my drinking world, being human we all
have human experiences, some are good, some are bad, but its because of our
being humans with free will to do anything we want to do, I took advantage of
this in my past, thank God I had the courage to change
God
bless you Al M
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