Daily
Reflections reading April 18th
Self-Honesty
The
deception of others is nearly always rooted in the deception of ourselves. . .
. When we are honest with another person, it confirms that we have been honest with
ourselves and with God. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 17
When
I was drinking, I deceived myself about reality, rewriting it to what I wanted
it to be. Deceiving others is a character defect–even if it is just stretching
the truth a bit or cleaning up my motives so others would think well of me. My
Higher Power can remove this character defect, but first I have to help myself
become willing to receive that help by not practicing deception. I need to
remember each day that deceiving myself about myself is setting myself up for
failure or disappointment in life and in Alcoholics Anonymous. A close, honest
relationship with a Higher Power is the only solid foundation I’ve found for
honesty with self and with others.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts
on April 18th Reading
I always told them the truth as I saw, it thru eyes that
could not see the truth if it came up and bit my butt! Well the lies I told and
the lies I believed, I had to live in for those years, self-honesty was very
had to find when I was all alone, lost in the hopelessness of this disease
Trying to do it on my own, my way like it worked my way at
anytime in my drinking life, well thank God I found the safety of a group of
drunks willing to reach out to me, my sponsor who would not take any crap told
me about RIGOROUS HONESTY
He said that was the type of honesty were you seek Gods,
truth not your own, I had to start by being honest with myself, sort out the
lies, I believe to be the truth, it was not hard as I thought, I just have to
remember truth is not all about me
So I started by working the 12 steps, practiced not lying to
myself, one day at a time, in time I came to believe that God would relieve me
of the desire to drink, I need to start with the foot work, not lying to myself
was the first step to healthy living
Learning the real truth was step two, rigorous honesty was
the only way I was going to do this, thanks to God and this fellowship I have
learned how to be honest, truthful, and useful, guess changing my attitude my
character defect is all about learning what the truth is
And how I apply it to my daily life thru God's will for me,
sharing it with my sponsor and friends, sure is a great relief to not have to
remember all the lies I told and who I told what lie to, with honesty the truth
does not have to be remember like a lie does!!
Thank God!!
God bless you Al M
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