Daily Reflections reading
February 10th
I Don’t Run The Show
When
we became alcoholics, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or
evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or
else He is nothing. God either is, or He isn’t. What was our choice to be?
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.53
Today
my choice is God. He is everything. For this I am truly grateful. When I think
I am running the show I am blocking God from my life. I pray I can remember
this when I allow myself to get caught up into self. The most important thing
is that today I am willing to grow along spiritual lines, and that God is
everything. When I was trying to quit drinking on my own, it never worked; with
God and A.A., it is working. This seems to be a simple thought for a
complicated alcoholic.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on February 10th Reading
I Don’t Run The Show, well thank God I do not ever try to
run the show anymore, it was a very taxing job being the king pin and having
everyone revolve around me and my own personal needs, nobody was as important
as the great Al was
Someone asked me if I was now cured from alcoholism because
I don't drink, I said let me tell you how it feels to be sober and free from
the desire to drink, how it feels to know I can never again drink in safety,
unless I want to lose all I gained
How it feels to be alive, able to functions as a human being
with out the use of alcohol or any other substitute, dulling my senses and
leaving me with out any feelings, how it feels to not have to run the show
anymore
How it feels to not have to control the universe, be the
most powerful person in the whole world, well at least in my own drunken mind I
am no longer a victim of myself I have the love and respect of all my family
and friends
I have real friends today, not fair weather one's, who like
me, used people for what they could get and when the times were rough drop you like
hot potatoes, I know that kind of person very well, ME because when I was not
the victim, I was the one to victimize you and all around me
Until AA I do not think I had any freedom, no real feeling
about how to live and work in society, today I have the freedom to choose how I
want to live, I have a choice every morning I accepted my disease and am
willing to go to any lengths to stay sober
Also willing to change myself and accept my part in my
disease, Run The Show, cured, hell no, ham is cured and when you become a
pickle you can never return to being a cucumber, I did need to clean up the wreckage
of my past and I sure had a big street to clean up
No more blaming others for what I did, or allowed others to
blame me, I have the freedom to accept my life as it should have been turning
my will over to God, to do His will for me and to practice the steps in all my
affairs thank God for freedom of bondage given freely to me thru God
God Bless you Al M
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