Daily Reflections reading August
24th
A Riddle That works
It may be possible to find explanations of spiritual experiences such as ours, but I have often tried to explain my own and have succeeded only in giving the story of it. I know the feeling it gave me and the results it has brought, but I realize I may never fully understand it’s deeper why and how. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 313
I had a profound spiritual experience during an open A.A. meeting, which led me to blurt out. “I’m an alcoholic!” I have not had a drink since that day. I can tell you the words I heard just prior to my admission, and how those words affected me, but as to why it happened, I do not know. I believe a power greater than myself chose me to recover, yet I do not know why. I try not to worry or wonder about what I do not yet know; instead, I trust that if I continue to work the Steps, practice the A.A. principles in my life, and share my story, I will be guided lovingly toward a deep and mature spirituality in which more will be revealed to me. For the time being, it is a gift for me to trust God, work the steps and help others
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on August 24th
Reading
I can remember my first sign of a power
greater than myself at a meeting early on in recovery we all held hands and
said the our father wow that just struck me between the eyes that night I did
have a father for the first time in my life I believed
To think it was only a matter of being
willing to believe nothing more was expected of me I saw that growth could
start from that point, I had a foundation of willingness I could build on to
make me even more willing to open my eyes to this concept of a power greater
than myself
For a brief moment, I had needed and
wanted God, I had been humbled and willing to have Him with me but like Bill
the sense of His presence had been blotted out by my pressing problems with
every one so blinded again from the presents of God I needed more willingness
About six months into my recovery I had a
profound spiritual experience I felt the presents of this new found God in my
heart and mind, I fell this overwhelming since of well being that I could not
ever imagine could be possible
The feeling I had was like God came down
from heaven picked me up and cradled me in His arms I had total serenity that
night and fell into a deep sleep that lasted for thirty six hours laying on a
hid a bed sofa at my mom's house
When I woke I still felt that since of
peace and well being like everything in my life was now going to change for the
better I know longer felt alone and helpless I found a beginning of a new way
of life knowing He will not leave me
I could now sit quietly when in confused
just asking for strength to meet my problems as He would have me I enter into a
new relationship with God as I now understand him I was given a lot of gifts
like enough willingness, honesty and humility to carry me into working all the
steps
Simple, but not easy, I had to clear out
all the wreckage of my past let go of my self-centeredness pride ego and sense
of being all powerful the moment I fully accepted I could now do this my
feelings of self worth and helping others just came to be
Now feeling this sense of peace and
serenity I had never dreamed possible I had confidence in what God will do for
me like Bill W I felt lifted up, as though a clean wind of a mountain top blew
through and through me also
A spiritual life work to help others, I
could not survive the certain trials and low spots ahead if I did not work for
the good of all I would surely drink again, and if I drink again I know I would
again try to take my life, faith would be dead indeed
I guess faith is knowing some power
grater then one self does exist, but I know if God did not come to and pick me
up like He did I would never have really believed He exists, for me I know it
had to be that white lighting spiritual experience that made me a believer may
you find your God now
God bless you Al M
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