Daily
Reflections reading February 2nd
Rescued By Surrender
Characteristic
of the so-called typical alcoholic is a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated
by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner
integrity…. Inwardly the alcoholic brooks no control from man or God. He, the
alcoholic, is and must be the master of his destiny. He will fight to the end
to preserve that position. A.A. COMES OF AGE, p.311
The
great mystery is: “Why do some of us die alcoholic deaths, fighting to preserve
the ‘independence’ of our ego, while others seem to sober up effortlessly in
A.A.?” Help from a Higher Power, the gift of sobriety, came to me when an
otherwise unexplained desire to stop drinking coincided with my willingness to
accept the suggestions of the men and women of A.A. I had to surrender, for
only by reaching out to God and my fellows could I be rescued.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on February 2nd Reading
I don't have a problem with the dysfunctions of family
today, because AA is my family now, AA taught me to put away my selfish toys,
to learn unconditional love and forgiveness, for me the affects of alcohol on
family's is best described but the actions of my son's alcoholism
He spent 17 days on life support in Sept, 2003 and left AMA,
to go to Va. to be with his wife, this lasted about 11 months doing it on his
own, he went into a hospital in Feb. 2005 bleeding out again, he had to have an
operation to stop the bleeding in the veins in his stomach and esophagus’s
He now needs a liver transplant, he was sent home and needed
to follow strict guide lines, but is still not willing to listen to the
doctors, he would not be on the list if he didn't, he thought the doctors were
using scare tactics, to keep him from doing it his way
Like anyone can scare an alcoholic into sobriety, he was
given information about what his odds are, if he should not try to follow
directions of doctors, so it became up to him to take the next right step in
his life all we can do is pray
I have seen this happen to so many in the AA program, but
when its your own family, I can not tell you the heartache this has caused in
the past twenty seven years, of watching him slowly killing himself, my 35+
years sober in AA can not do any thing to save him
This brings back memories of all the times I thought I could
do it my way, remembering all the times I saw tears rolling down the cheeks of
my mom, because I was to damn stubborn to see life was not all about little old
ME and my selfish attitudes
As much as I want to I
can not give this to anyone who does not want it, I know its all in Gods hands
and what ever His will is so shall it be done, today there are many places that
can help anyone with housing and medical things
To many are not willing to do the footwork to save their own
life, with our son we can't do it for him, his sister drove from Ohio to
Massachusetts on a thanks giving and he was to sick to come see her, she is
leaving tomorrow morning, his 11 year old nephew was here for two weeks
He never came to see him either, it is very sad that booze
can do this to anyone of us as you can see the affects of alcohol is the worst
thing any family can go thru but nothing is worth losing our own sobriety over
for what another person is doing
Detachment is difficult but not imposable one day at a time real sad when they still think they can do it on their own with out AA or help from others, YES some are constitutionally incapable of being honest with them. There are such unfortunates. They are not at fault; they seem to have been born that way.
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