Daily Reflections reading
September 10th
Recovery By Proxy?
They [The Promises] will
always materialize if we work for them. Alcoholics
Anonymous Page 84
Sometimes I think: “Making these amends is going too far! No one should have to humble himself like that!” However, it is this very humbling of myself that brings me that much closer to the sunlight of the spirit. A.A. is the only hope I have if I am to continue healing and gain a life of happiness, friendship and harmony.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on September 10th
Reading
It was the suffering I experience as a
result of my alcoholic behavior that made me humble enough to admit accept I
was really powerless of alcohol, until I found the necessary humility recovery
was impossible for me I had to know I could not successfully control and run my
life
I would continue to fail with out help
understand and acceptance of my faults is being humble with others and myself,
I have to continue to look at my faults, be willing to change them and make
amends, humility is the understanding God is now in charge of my life
Everything I have is from Him, before I
found AA I humiliated myself almost daily my ego was like the good year blimp I
was very embarrassed and powerless over the way I acted out my emotions when
drinking, I blamed everyone else for my problems
If only they would listen to ME!!! Do it
my way, the Ego was crushed when they did not accept me and then the guilt,
shame, and remorse came, I had no self respect, felt lower than pond scum for
the way I acted and how I hurt had so many
Today I have some degree of true humility
by being humble before God and my peers, like I said I have had enough
humiliation in all the things I did before I found hope in AA, humility is a
thing I need to practice in my living
Some times this mean I have to accept
criticism, I also need to accept the praise of others when they express
themselves with gratitude, humility helps me accept this as part of recovery
and I do not let my pride or ego take over
I am recovering through the love and
guidance of my Higher Power God, as I understand Him, I try to keep in mind
that I am what I am and where all my hope has come from AA, if I forget these
basics and rely on my ego I will grow a lot closer to despair.
I was afraid to show any kind of weakness
I thought I was indestructible I could control everything all under my control,
today thru humility I have to accept my very real and human limitations,
humility is truth a humble attitude is simply one that recognizes where our
power ends and God's begins
Its letting go of the false and looking
at Gods daily plan for me I don't need to get my own way today nice when I do
but humility says its OK either way God is in my heart and I hope He is in
yours
God bless you Al M
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