Daily Reflections reading
September 4th
Reconstruction
Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction
ahead . . .ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS
, p. 83
The reconstruction of my life is the prime goal in my recovery as I avoid
taking that first drink, one day at a time. The task is most successfully
accomplished by working the Steps of our Fellowship. The spiritual life is not
a theory; it works, but I have to live it. Step Two started me on my journey to
develop a spiritual life; Step Nine allows me to move into the final phase of
the initial Steps which taught me how to live a spiritual life. Without the
guidance and strength of a Higher Power, it would be impossible to proceed
through the various stages of reconstruction. I realize that God works for me
and through me. Proof comes to me when I realize that God did for me what I
could not do for myself, by removing that gnawing compulsion to drink. I must
continue daily to seek God’s guidance. He grants me a daily reprieve and will
provide the power I need for reconstruction.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on September 4th Reading
Made direct amends that could be a letter a phone call or
going around to see them some letters went out some phone calls were made some
amends could not be made but most of my amends were made at a personal level
People I sponsor today I tell them not to confess to the
loved ones about any affairs as that could really hurt them and the ones they
are trying to make the amends to so the key there is willingness to make
amends
If I told a friend I had an affair with his wife that would drag her into my guilt hurting her also it would hurt him at the expense of my letting go of my guilt so in some cases just become willing why confess to something that could hurt others
Din not let my amends be at the cost of other people's
security dignity and well being step nine was a healing experience for me and
the people I made amends to In short it was to ask for forgiveness and given
forgiveness
Some people I could not make those amends to but I did
become willing to make the amends after all I am not perfect but a change heart
and attitude is what it is all about and this does bring me into step ten daily
inventory and promptly admitting my wrongs
Working all the other steps made it easer to do step ten
having worked thru the others I had worked my way up to this clearing out all
the wreckage of my past making amends where ever possible why did I need this
step
Because this step is the first of the living steps it keeps
me focused my attitudes on a daily basis helping me change things in my daily
life I know I am going to make mistakes after all I am human not the God I
thought I was in years past
Well I did straighten out most of my past but still have
work to do there things just keep coming up in my daily living that I had
forgot because I was a black out drinker and I do meet people who in the past I
had hurt and I owe that amend to
Step ten does teach me how to straighten out my present
state of affairs it has kept my emotions in check my resentments anger fear
depression also my hope and love for all that has been given to me by working
these steps into my life
Life is full of mistakes and I need to look at my part in
every thing I do or say making sure I have not hurt anyone with my actions
today step ten keeps us from doing the same thing we did in our past
God has given me the chance to make things right here and now
as I do them step ten makes that a reality I do not want to return to old
behavior steps 10 -11-12 are the living steps of our program
Doing them right will keep me from ever returning to my past
ways God gave me the way out and I need to use every tool He has given me the
literature the meetings the slogans service work all this takes action on my
part to be of service to God and the fellowship
Thanks for listening God Bless
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