Daily
Reflections reading February 6th
A
Rallying Point
Therefore, Step Two is
the rallying point for all of us. Whether agnostic, atheist, or former
believer, we can stand together on this Step.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS. p. 33
I feel that A.A. is a
God-inspired program and that God is at every A.A. meeting. I see, believe, and
have come to know that A.A. works, because I have stayed sober today. I am
turning my life over to A.A. and to God by going to an A.A. meeting.
If God is in my heart
and everyone else’s, then I am a small part of a whole and I am not unique. If
God is in my heart and He speaks to me through other people, then I must be a
channel of God to other people. I should seek to do His will by living
spiritual principles and my reward will be sanity and emotional sobriety. Page
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© Alcoholics Anonymous
World Services
My
thoughts on February 6th Reading
Step two "came to believe" was
a process of finding this power greater than myself this happened over time
first I came I showed up and stumbled in the door of AA hopelessly lost in my
alcoholism having no other place to go full of fear and despair
I came and sat in the rooms slowly and
surely my mind began to clear up I began to have hope, as more and more people
told their stories this hope was reinforced by what I had heard, hope yes, but
still I need to being convinced of this loving God of alcoholics anonymous
when I can see hundreds of others doing
the things they are asking me to do and getting well, then I have to make a
choice, I have to either believe they are telling me the truth, or that I am
the only sane human still alive on the face of the earth
I came to my senses and began to
experience some emotional sobriety when I finally came to believe is when my
real recovery began, it was a process, my spiritual growth was determined only
by knowledge of your God as I was beginning to understand
With the presence of a power greater than
myself I began to find a little faith, at first it is only the faith of the
fellowships believe in their God, If one person tells me something I can call
it a lot of crap, but when many people in recovery tell me it’s true I have to
pay attention
The only thing that seems essential to me
in working step two is that I could not be absolutely close-minded and refuse
to either believe or to take any further action, for me there was no hope until
I started to change my attitude thru my actions
For some people, spirituality is
dramatic, for most however it is very gradual, as one grows and matures
emotionally, one also grows spiritually, before I could accept a new power to
restore me to sanity, I had to engage in some emotional and spiritual
housecleaning
I admitted I was not God and need to stop
pretending to play God, I had to grow beyond selfishness and grandiosity I also
had to stop putting other people, places, or things, in the role of gods, I
needed to overcome sources of bitterness toward my old belief in God
I have had negative experiences with
churches, with the hypocrisy, bigotry, condemnation, I was in conflict and
struggling with a sense that God has failed me, that He has allowed me to go
down the wrong path of life, not ever thinking it was my free will that caused
all my pain
I was angry that God had not
instantaneously healed me after my first, not so humble, attempt at prayer, but
when I did honesty and humbly asked He did take the desire to drunk from me,
this was when I commit myself to a life of recovery
I really wanted to fill the void, wanted
to break down the barriers hindering my progress, so I needed to turn to the
ultimate source, in my case the God I became to understand in AA, the god of
unconditional love compassion understanding and most of all forgiveness
So it is action that returned me to
sanity, the action of changing my attitudes and false beliefs of who I thought
I was and how I tried to change every thing and everyone around me, with my
mind open I saw the program working for me I needed this fellowship of warm and
loving people
God bless you Al M
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