Daily Reflections reading December 27th
Problem Solving
“Quite
as important was the discovery that spiritual principles would solve all my
problems.” ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 42
Through
the recovery process described in the Big Book, I have come to realize that the
same instructions that work on my alcoholism, work on much more. Whenever I am
angry or frustrated, I consider the matter a manifestation of the main problem
within me, alcoholism. As I “walk” through the Steps, my difficulty is usually
dealt with long before I reach the Twelfth “suggestion,” and those difficulties
that persist are remedied when I make an effort to carry the message to someone
else. These principles do solve my problems! I have not encountered an
exception, and I have been brought to a way of living which is satisfying and
useful.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on December 27th Reading
Recovery is a process of growing and living in the solution
so to me its the only way I can ever guarantee that I will have a stress free
painless happy future to live in when I think about it didn’t have much of that
in my past
I am sure I do not want to return to that past full of
selfishness distrust deceit hatred fear and truth-less-ness so learning to
living and let live is the only way to go trying to find out daily what Gods
will is for me
Live your life any way you so choose and I will live mine the
way AA taught me with God’s help my sponsors help your help and the 12 steps of
recovery today I am living not only on life’s terms but on God’s terms
I only have today to live in no more projecting on what
could have been what should have been only concerned with what will be just for
this one day Its the practicing of this simple idea that is so complicated
We have been watching our son slowly killing himself and am
not able to help him, he remind me of myself when I was drinking I tried to run
everything only to be rejected by everyone this drove me deeper into my own
little world with my big bottle
Knowing thing would change thru the teachings of AA I have
learned rule # 62 “don’t take yourself to darn seriously” and its not up to me
to change other I am lucky if I can learn and change myself I know I can’t
change others
I need to respect the rights of others some have the right
not to recover but I will thru example be there for anyone seeking our way of
life, I had to learn how to be honest and trust worthy, I had to learn to let
my X wife live her own life
Now I must let our son learn how to live his own life and
not try to control what he is doing, do I remembering how my big mouth had hurt
many times in the past letting go was hard I know I have to live and let live
with him as well
I learned how to let go and not make waves over every little
thing, live and let live has been a life preserver for me, with all the
temptation put in front of me, today I just do everything one day at a time
sharing my life with my angel of a wife
Trying to be supportive of her needs in this troubled time
we are going thru today, works great when you turn it over to Gods care and let
Him be in charge of your life, but it also hurts like hell when you see your
son dying of a disease that can be arrested
It is so complicated because we are all just humans with
free will that God gave us to use as He thought we should but Human as I am I
use it still to get what I want the program keeps my on the right track every
morning I ask God to keep me
From my selfish ways and try to do His will for me today
keep me safe and sober at night I just thank him for what He has given me for
what He has taken away from me and For what He has left me another day alcohol
free
The real adversity is getting to the doors of AA and
changing who I was when I got here my behavior, was alcoholic behavior, because
at this time I still rationalize my addiction as I started working the steps
with a sponsor, he was not going to let me play the blame game
He kept asking me what was my part in the behaviors that were
making me upset write them down look them over then tell me what part you
played in it can laugh at this today but how I hated the way he made me think
about my part in life
It took time for recovery to move from my mind into my heart,
I need to work on old behaviors take the effort practice the steps, in my life
sometimes force myself to do things even when they don't feel right, change
sure did come slowly at times
But my sponsor always saw the changes before I did, this new
way of life slowly became second nature to me in times of stress I can still
revert back to my old ways of thinking feeling and behaving thanks to AA and
the God of my understanding
These times are very few and far between today because I
have a new way of thinking and my rationalizing is in a positive manor today
always trying to look at both sides of the picture before I make a damn fool of
myself like in the past
Change is the answer for me today, changes of my attitude
turning it all over to God because I could not stay sober with out His help; serenity
is being calm and untroubled without worry, stress, or disturbance
God bless you
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