Daily Reflections reading February 21st
I’m Part Of The Whole
At
once, I became a part–if only a tiny part–of a cosmos…. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 225
When
I first came to A.A., I decided that “they” were very nice people–perhaps a little
naive, a little too friendly, but basically decent, earnest people (with whom I
had nothing in common). I saw “them” at meetings –after all, that was where
“they” existed. I shook hands with “them” and, when I went out the door, I
forgot about “them.” Then one day my Higher Power, whom I did not then believe
in, arranged to create a community project outside of A.A., but one which
happened to involve many A.A. members. We worked together, I got to know “them”
as people. I came to admire “them,” even to like “them” and, in spite of
myself, to enjoy “them.” “Their” practice of the program in their daily
lives–not just talk at meetings –attracted me and I wanted what they had.
Suddenly the “they” became “we.” I have not had a drink since.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on February 21st Reading
Today I am part of the whole because of
the process of focusing on myself, a journey into every corner of my past and
present, where I had been, where I would like to be in my life, free from the
conflicts of this disease
Having to un-learn the things I did
before I found this program, took a long time to focus on me I had to look at
each part of my past, finding out what part I played in the things happening, I
found in the process of elimination, where I was at fault, if I could do
anything different
Why did I treat people with such
disrespect, I sure needed to look at everything to help me start to change who
I was when I got here and what I would become, for me this was taken that
suggested first year of sobriety to stay focused on my learning the twelve
steps to find myself
By doing this I found the God, of my new
understanding, this did not happen over night, it took that process of looking
staying focused only on my own faults and how to correct them. I had no time to
get involved in relationships with other this early in recovery
Today having found my higher power, I
live the twelve steps of recovery, with God at my side, He guides me thru each
day teaching me a little more about myself and how I need to change my thinking
daily
So much easer to do when I have God and
others in fellowship guiding me on the way, this is how I became part of the
whole, the principles are guides, I have to utilize these principles to
continue the progress of learning about myself
I think step seven says it best when it
says Humbly asked Him to remove our "shortcomings" this tells me that
I'm not perfect, I am willing to surrender my shortcomings to Him, by attuning
my free will to what I today know God wants me to become, a man of honor and
dignity
I still have to ask God for the strength
to do it, because on my own I have no power, progress is the ability to realize
I am not responsible for every human being's actions, I have no power over
people, places, and things
I can only show them as others showed me
the way out is taken the twelve steps into a new way of life, with out the
confusion torment and fears, of my past, as long as I remember to pray and try
to do my best to follow God's will things are fantastic
If I have learned anything in this
program, I am part of the whole because it is about "progress not
perfection" once I had found myself by doing and living the steps I had
the spiritual awakening to be able to go forward and help others find there way
God bless you Al M
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