Daily
Reflections reading February 29th
One A.A. Miracle
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for a few brief moments of temptation the thought of drink has never returned;
and at such times a great revulsion has risen up in him. Seemingly he could not
drink even if he would. God had restored his sanity. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.
57
The
word "God" was frightening to me when I first saw it associated with
A.A.'s Twelve Steps. Having tried all the means I could to stop drinking, I
found that it was not possible for me to sustain that desire over a period of
time. Yet, how could I believe in a "God" that had allowed me to sink
to the deep despair that engulfed me-whether drinking or dry?
The
answer was in finally admitting that it might be possible for me to know the
mercy of a Power greater than myself who could grant me sobriety contingent on
my willingness to "come to believe." By finally admitting that I was
one among many, and by following the example of my sponsor and other A.A.
members in practicing faith I did not have, my life has been given meaning,
direction and purpose.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on February 29th Reading
My last drunk lasted about eight months, I just wanted to
die because no one cared, friends and family really cared but sure were not
going to put up with anymore BS crap from a drunk they were just sick and tired
of trying to please me and did not want to walk on egg shells anymore
God had done for me what I could not do for himself, my
human will had failed I had admitted complete defeat, felt like I had been
raised from the dead, suddenly taken from the scrap heap to a level of life
better than the best I had ever known!
First thing I learned in recovery is I am not God, but it
took a lot for me to see He really does exist going about Gods business is
going along with His plans for me, this is not an issue today for I am now
another one of Alcoholic Anonymous Miracles
I have a fantastic Relationship with the God of my
understanding, I am one with Him most days, but I had a big issue with God in
the beginning of my recovery, I did not want Him in my life, the God of my old
understanding was a very vengeful, angry, God who I feared because of my past
I thank the founders for realizing this and given us a
choice of our own higher power, I had to come to believe in this wonderful God,
who forgave me and saved me from myself yes I am a Miracle of the program the
real Miracle is God gave me the steps to find myself
What got me to AA was when God intervened with my plan to
end my life, it was very dumb to try to take my life because of all the
mistakes of my past, and I made many mistakes and had harmed many people when
out there drinking
God knew how much it hurt me to keep re-living those feeling
of my past drinking stopped the feelings for a while but even that was not
working in the end God gave me this Miracle to do the right action and start
over feeling my feelings
He gave me the hope and strength to begin feeling to change
my life around this was hard because I had to feel the pain, guilt, and
remorse, of my past I had to feel that pain to have any chance to learn how to
live life with out booze
All the tools I needed were in the big book and the twelve
step and twelve traditions with the help of the people in this God given
fellowship I found the strength with Gods help to take the action and
Change my way of thinking
I could see how my attitudes effected others in my life, I
learned the truth about myself, I made amends to friends and family, I was
truly sorry that I had hurt theme had to turn to God to learn how to find that
forgiveness for myself
All the others that I hurt had forgiven me God had forgiven
me just had to accept God's forgiveness and start with His teachings thru the
12 steps God loves us all and all He asked is we learn how to love and forgive
each other God gave us the tools but it takes the action to pick them up
God Bless you Al M
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