Daily
Reflections reading February 23rd
Mysterious Paradoxes
Such
is the paradox of A.A. regeneration: strength arising out of complete defeat
and weakness, the loss of one’s old life as a condition for finding a new one.
A.A. COMES OF AGE, p. 46
What
glorious mysteries paradoxes are! They do not compute, yet when recognized and
accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond human logic. When I
face a fear, I am given courage; when I support a brother or sister, my
capacity to love myself is increased; when I accept a pain as part of the
growing experience of life, I realize a greater happiness; when I look at my
dark side, I am brought into new light; when I accept my vulnerabilities and
surrender to a Higher Power, I am graced with unforeseen strength. I stumbled
through the doors of A.A. in disgrace, expecting nothing from life, and I have
been given hope and dignity. Miraculously, the only way to keep the gifts of
the program is to pass them on.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts
on February 23rd Reading
The paradox of AA yes, strength arising
out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one’s old self as a condition
for finding a new self from the disease, having to give it away to keep it, I
had to surrender to win, they do seem contradictory
The thing is what I get by given it away,
or as I prefer to call it passing it forwards, because the paradox is we never
really give it away in the sense we lose it, but to start with I get life free
of fear and anger the more I give the more I am free from myself
The more I try to pass the message
forward the more I receive back, going on commitments to share experience,
strength, and hope, I can't think of a better way to pass forward what was so
freely given to me I am grateful for this program and all of the steps
They helped me walk thru my fears and
hopelessness, to find a new way of life with out the booze I had to look into
my past ways, it was hard to walk thru all the hopelessness and despair, the
fear was so great, I knew I needed help to do this, thank God for my sponsors
help
My past is a reminder of my old way of
life, it will always remind me how much I had to change and how important it is
to freely give all this back to those who are willing to start over, this is
where I will not take any unacceptable behaviors from anyone, family or friends
I will not take any abuse from anyone, I
have to accept others are not always nice, some also have the right not to
recover from this fatal disease they have the same choices I had, like our son
on life support in 2003 and left against medical advice lasted about eleven
months doing it on he own
He went into hospital 2005 bleeding out
again and now needs a liver transplant he had to have an operation to stop the
bleeding in the veins in his esophagus’s and stomach, and he still did not want
to go to AA for help he is doing it his way again
We just learned when he went to visit our
daughter in Ohio he once again started to drink, this is one of the hardest
thing I have ever had to take in my life not being able to give it to him, so
all we can do is pray for him and ask that God's will be done for him
God has given many opportunities to help
others to find hope from their disease, I show how grateful I am, Gratitude is
action not just a word we hear around the halls, God will keep given me the
tools to reach out to others
He sure has given me a life full of hope
love and understanding I am most grateful of all that He forgave me and taught
me how to forgive others for the mistakes we all make in life, today I don't
have to react to things but simply act upon all the information I receive
God bless you Al M
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