Daily
Reflections reading March 10th
Today, It’s My Choice
we
invariably find that at some time in the past we have made decisions based on
self which later placed us in a position to be hurt. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.62
With
the realization and acceptance that I had played a part in the way my life had
turned out came a dramatic change in my outlook. It was at this point that the
A.A. program began to work for me. In the past I had always blamed others,
either God or other people, for my circumstances. I never felt that I had a
choice in altering my life. My decisions had been based on fear, pride, or ego.
As a result, those decisions led me down a path of self-destruction. Today I
try to allow my God to guide me on the road to sanity. I am responsible for my
action–or inaction–whatever the consequences may be.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on March 10th Reading
Well I thought
I always made the right choices in life, I always had good jobs, but change
them often because those people never understood how great I really was, after
all I just about ran their company I sure was the only one who knew what he was
doing for these people I was the greatest
BUT!! I had to
make that choice to move on to where I would be appreciated, right! We always
need to make choices, but it’s hard to do that when you’re in control of your
life and everyone else’s life, my drinking choices were the most self-serving
of any one I know
Life was truly
just about Al and what he wanted, man what an over inflated EGO, thought I was
God well when I lost all and surrender to Gods will, that’s when I started to
look at my character defects had a lot of work in that department, walking thru
all the wrong choices I made in my life
I had to try
making amends to those I had harmed when I was out there doing my thing,
sifting thru all the lies I told to everyone and even believed theses lies
myself, sure had lots of work but did not need to go there alone, the program
guided me thru the hardest times
Helping me to
make rational choices, showing me that life is not what Al can get out of it,
but it’s what Al can put into it, I choose to live free from booze or drugs,
free from the hurt, pain, and bondage of myself, this was possible working the
steps into my life
The program is
of unselfishness, love, forgiveness of others, as well as fogginess of myself,
every morning I choose how I want to live my way, or Gods way, choice is very simple
today I want to attune my will into what Gods plans are for me today
My choices were
to reach out for help I had to be aware that I had a problem and could not
solve it alone, addiction is something we all fight every day, my addiction to
alcohol was powerful, with out my awareness of my secrets and turning them over
and trusting in my sponsor
When I feel God
is not close to me, I just know I abandon Him, for my own free will, I had to
make the choice to move back towards God, He is the one who makes me aware of
my secrets, if I was not aware of my secrets and willing to give them up my
choice would be disastrous
I would have to
live in fear, fear of anyone ever knowing them but I was told my secrets would
take me back to the bottle, our common bond of recovering from a disease that
is physical, mental, and spiritual I have made a choice to share in this bond
with all in recovery
With this
choice I am no longer a victim of myself or anyone else, others showed me the
way out I had to completely abandon my old way and habits to find this new way of
life I am aware of my real friends today who care about me and are willing to
help me anytime
Today I choose
to accept my disease and am willing to go to any lengths to stay sober, I made
a choice to be willing to change myself and accept my part of the mess I caused
in my disease I stay focused on what God has given me showing my gratitude by
helping others
God bless you
Al M
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