Daily
Reflections reading July 16th
A Measure
Of True Humility
In every case,
pain had been the price of admission into a new life. But this admission price
had purchased more than we expected. It brought a measure of humility, which we
soon discovered to be a healer of pain. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.
75
It was painful to give up trying to control my life, even though success eluded me, and when life got too rough, I drank to escape. Accepting life on life’s terms will be mastered through the humility I experience when I turn my will and my life over to the care of God, as I understand Him. With my life in God’s care, fear, uncertainty, and anger are no longer my response to those portions of life that I would rather not have happen to me. The pain of living through these times will be healed by the knowledge that I have received the spiritual strength to survive.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on July 16th Reading
Acceptance of my faults is being humble with others
and myself, I have to continue to look at my faults and be willing to change
them to make amends, humility is the understanding God is now in charge of my
life, everything I have is from Him
Before I found AA I humiliated myself almost daily, my
ego was like the good year blimp, I was in control of not just my life, your
life, but I was in control of the whole universe, I was the only God I knew, it
was my way our else your life was to become miserable
I was very embarrassed and powerless over the way I
acted out my emotions when drinking, I blamed everyone else for my problems, if
only they would listen to ME! Do it my way, the Ego was crushed when they did
not accept me, then the guilt, shame, and remorse came, I had no self respect I
felt lower than pond scum, for the way I acted and how I had hurt so many
Today I have some degree of true humility, by being
humble before God and my peers, like I said I have had enough humiliation in
all the things I did before I found hope in AA, humility is a thing I need to
practice in my living, some times this mean I have to accept criticism
I also need to accept the praise of others, when they
express themselves with gratitude, humility helps me accept this as part of
recovery, I do not let my pride or ego take over, I am recovering through the
love and guidance of my Higher Power, God
I try to keep in mind who I am, what I am, and where
all my hope has come from AA, if I forget these basics and rely on my ego, I
will lose my humility and grow a lot closer to despair, I was afraid to show
any kind of weakness I thought I was indestructible
I could control everything, people, places, and things
all under my control, like anyone can control another today thru humility I
have to accept my very real human limitations, humility is truth a humble
attitude is simply one that recognizes where our power ends and God's begins
Its letting go of the false and looking at Gods daily
plan for me, I don't need to get my own way today, nice when I do but humility
says its OK either way, maintaining an attitude of humility is essential for my
recovery if I let myself fall into the trap of pride and egotism
Its then I am heading for another drink, humility is
my understanding of my weaknesses and my own dependence on God it is the
beginning of hope and serenity
God is in my
heart and I hope He is in yours
God bless all Al M
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