Daily Reflections reading
September 11th
Making Amends
Above all, we should try to be absolutely sure
that we are not delaying because we are afraid. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions Page 87
To have courage, to be unafraid, are gifts of my recovery. They empower me to ask for help and to go forth in making my amends with a sense of dignity and humility. Making amends may require a certain amount of honesty that I feel I lack yet with the help of God and the wisdom of others, I can reach within and find the strength to act. My amends may be accepted, or they may not, but after they are completed I can walk with a sense of freedom and know that, for today, I am responsible.
My thoughts on September 11th Reading
Made amends to all the people on my list of harms I made
wherever and whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or
others, step nine was to apologize humbly and sincerely to every one I had hurt
in my past
Being responsible for the damage I did it was necessary to
clear the wreckage of my past, so I could really let go of the past and move on
to my new life booze free, making amends was one of the most difficult to do,
fear of the unknown was always there
It’s one thing to make a list of the people I hurt, as I did
in step eight that was painful but to go to those people in person and actually
admit what I did, ask for forgiveness that just scared the hell out of me, then
to try to make it right with my apology
Never mind some of the restitution I need to make for
stiffing some of my creditors, it was tempting to skimp on this step, but I
thought that with everyone step, some of the people I harmed didn't actually
realize I had cause problems for them
I still needed to make those amends, anything that bothered
me was an amend to make, there were times I could not apologize because to do
so would cause more harm, my sponsor was a big help he showed me the right way
to go in these matters of harms
He helped me to be honest as to who the amends would hurt,
its not about me, If I did not know how to reach some there was not much I
could do but stay willing, for me it was important to get this done as soon as
possible and doing it right
I had to get the bulk of my amends done as soon as possible,
with out hurting anyone my family, my friends, my co-workers, creditors, were
the first and easiest for me, confronting and making amends for my mistakes
freed me form that bondage of myself
God was with me every step of the way, today I thank Him and
my sponsor for the strength to take these action in steps four thru nine, it
really set me free to start practicing all the steps in my daily
Life step one, two, three, were decision step, now step ten
eleven and twelve are the living steps
God bless you Al M
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