Daily
Reflections reading April 8th
An Inside Look
We
want to find exactly how, when, and where our natural desires have warped us.
We wish to look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused others and
ourselves. By discovering what our emotional deformities are, we can move
toward their correction TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.43
Today
I am no longer a slave to alcohol, yet in so many ways enslavement still
threatens–my self, my desires, even my dreams. Yet without dreams I cannot
exist; without dreams there is nothing to keep me moving forward. I must look
inside myself, to free myself. I must call upon God’s power to face the person
I’ve feared the most, the true me, the person God created me to be. Unless I
can or until I do, I will always be running, and never be truly free. I ask God
daily to show me such a freedom!
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on April 8th Reading
Every day I wake up I learn something new about my life, at
first I had a real hard time with changing my way of living in the here and
now, the life style AA was pushing with the God thing just did not really
appeal to me
Being responsible for the damage I did it was necessary to
clear the wreckage of my past so I could really let go of the past and move on
to my new way of life booze free, it was difficult to do fear of the unknown
was always there
I did not want God's condemning judging ways, in my life
anymore I was doing fine, with out Him all I needed to do is learn how to drink
the right way, like social drinking, I still thought I could do thing with out
anyone’s help, I did not need people telling what to do all the time
An inside look sure was needed for me, my life was in the
crapper and still wanted it my way, how sick was I, it was not like I could
ever drink in safety again, life is a constant change and you change or go this
is the lesson we all learn in recovery
Looking at my old life habits was very hard to do, I did
have to change and learn new ways of living or just die, I started to slowly
change my life style from that selfish SOB that I was, to a caring and loving
person, I found out that there is a God and I am not him
He could do for me what I could not do for myself, all I had
to do is get out of the way and let Him, I needed to learn all about who I was
and how I fit into the picture of His will for me, another inside look
Not doing my will to fit my selfish ways, big change working
on me and looking at harms I did
Instead of looking for someone to blame for all my mistakes,
amends was a big step forward to my changing me and my attitudes, along with
knowledge of His power I have been give this gift of sobriety, I love the new
way of life I have, I met many new friends everyday
And I have a marriage that is blessed by God Himself, my
wife is my angel and we share or new lives together in recovery, we sponsor
many people and we enjoy the company of AA folks very much where ever we met
them
Today my purpose In life is to make changes in my own life
finding God's will for me, also to help others make changes in their lives to
find their own high power, I try living by the prayer of St Francis living to
give instead of looking to receive
Today I have a new way of life free from hopelessness, anger,
guilt, and remorse, I can now use my past to help others in finding themselves
in there recovery, God has many lessons to teach everyone He will only teach us
when we are ready to accept His will for today
Everyday is a new beginning to try and do Gods will for just
this one simple day, being human I still have many faults, I still am looking
inside, learning about myself and learning about the love and hope of this
program from people just like you
God bless you Al M
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