Daily
Reflections reading April 6th
A Lifetime Process
We
were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn’t control our
emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn’t make a
living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy,
we couldn’t seem to be of real help to other people. . . . ALCOHOLICS
ANONYMOUS, p. 52
These words remind me that I have more problems than alcohol, that alcohol is only a symptom of a more pervasive disease. When I stopped drinking I began a lifetime process of recovery from unruly emotions, painful relationships, and unmanageable situations. This process is too much for most of us without help from a Higher Power and our friends in the Fellowship. When I began working the Steps of the A.A. program, many of these tangled threads unraveled but, little by little, the most broken places of my life straightened out. One day at a time, almost imperceptibly, I healed. Like a thermostat being turned down, my fears diminished. I began to experience moments of contentment. My emotions became less volatile. I am now once again a part of the human family.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on April 6th Reading
A lifetime process was for me to reach out for help, I had
to be aware that I had a serious problem and couldn't solve it alone, I did not
get to this place of no return over night and I know it is going to take a life
time to make it right
Addiction is something we all fight every day my addiction
to alcohol was powerful, with out my awareness of my secrets and turning them
over and trusting in my sponsor, I would be lost in my disease forever, I
needed to reach out for help to recover from my ISM's
When I feel God is not close to me, I just know that I moved
back into my own free will and I had to move back towards God, because He is
the one who makes me aware, if I was not aware of my secrets and willing to
give them up I would have to live in fear
Fear of anyone ever knowing them, but I was told my secrets
would take me back to the bottle, our common bond of recovering from a disease
that is physical, mental, and spiritual is not going to just happen I needed to
take a lot of action working on my defects
Today I feel alive knowing there is help to functions as a
human, being with out the use of alcohol or any other substitute dulling my
senses and leaving me with out any true feelings, because we share this common
bond I an no longer in fear, or alone, in my thoughts
In time I became aware I am no longer a victim of myself, or
anyone else, others showed me the way out, I am aware of my real friends today
who care about me and are willing to help me anytime, all I needed to do is
pick up that hundred pound phone
This fellowship has to go both ways, today I can be there
for others who are hurting like I was, when I came into the fellowship, because
of people like you I learned when I was not the victim of things except in my
mind
But knowing my secret of getting my own selfish ways, I was
the one to victimize you, until AA I do not think I had any freedom from myself
no real feeling about how to live, today I have the freedom to choose how I
want to live and have a choice every morning
I accepted my disease and am willing to go to any lengths to
stay sober, I became willing to change myself and accept my part of the mess I
caused in my disease, I did need to clean up the wreckage of my past and I sure
had a big street to clean
I learned not to blaming others for what I did or allowed
others to blame me, I have the freedom to accept my life as it should have
always been, turning my will over to Gods care, gave me the freedom not to take
life to seriously
Thank God for freedom of bondage of myself and the awesome
bond that we have in recovery I like given back because it helps my own
recovery from the disease of alcoholism, I can now show people how I had to
walk thru my fears and hopelessness to find a way of life
I have changed to becoming a loving useful member of the
fellowship today, I stay focused on what God has given me, showing my gratitude
by helping others to begin their life long joinery into their recovery and
teaching about the twelve step to a new way of life
This is a
lifetime process thank God the joy is in the journey
God bless you all
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