Daily Reflections reading
September 21st
The Last Promise
We will suddenly realize that
God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. Alcoholics Anonymous Page 84
The last promise in the Big Book came true for me on the very first day of sobriety. God kept me sober that day, and on every other day I allowed Him to operate in my life. He gives me the strength, courage and guidance to meet my responsibilities in life so that I am then able to reach out and help others stay sober and grow. He manifests within me, making me a channel of His word, thought and deed. He works with my inner self, while I produce in the outer world, for He will not do for me what I can do for myself. I must be willing to do His work, so that He can function through me successfully.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on September 21st Reading
God is doing for us what we could not do
for ourselves, well it sure did not feel like He was when I got here, why did
He let me go thru all the hurt and pain of my drunken live if He was doing for
me what I could not do myself
Well when I look at this I know I was
doing this all to myself because I did not need any God in my life I was just
doing fine on my own free will, right Sponsor said try free will on diarrhea
let me know if it works for you because you will be the first that it worked
for
When on the roller coaster of emotional
turmoil growth is often painful, the AA program has taught me to experience the
inner change however painful it is at the time, it eventually guides me from
selfishness, to selflessness, If I am to have serenity I must walk past
emotional turmoil
I arrived at the doors of AA feeling
totally hopeless, in turmoil over my past experiences, I did not think life was
worth living anymore, I was going to kill myself by hitting a tree on a winding
road where my son's father had died, just to get even with my wife, to give her
guilt
this is when that last of the promises
came into my life, God took over and guided me to a path of selflessness to
think I almost died just to get even, because she did not love me or want me
near her ever again thank God I did stop
I never thought of anyone but myself
takes a long time to get of that roller coaster ride I was on I kept going to
AA meetings and listened to speaker after speaker say that they got back into
the big bed and their wives had forgiven them every thing in their lives has
changed
I was told if I go to enough meeting I
will at some point hear my story being told but someone I really did not believe
this till one night a man got up and told my story and it was then I did not
feel alone and was given some hope It
took a lot of time to accept
I had to surrender completely this higher
power I never though there was a power greater than the great Al The only way I
was ever going to get any serenity was by surrendering completely to God
serenity is a state of mind a peace with in myself and only I can give up this
serenity to others
if I let them get to me in acceptance the
big book nothing absolutely nothing
happens in Gods world by mistake but a lot happens in man's world on
purpose many sick things humans do I have to tell you not much was right in my
drinking world being human we all have
human experiences some are good some are
bad but its because of our being humans with free will to do anything we want
to do I took advantage of this a lot in my past thank God I had the courage to change and walk on thru my past
God bless you Al M
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