Daily
Reflections reading November 9th
Stepping Into the Sunlight
But
first of all we shall want sunlight; nothing much can grow in the dark.
Meditation is our step out into the sun. AS BILL SEES IT, p. 10
Sometimes
I think I don’t have time for prayer and meditation, forgetting that I always
found the time to drink. It is possible to make time for anything I want to do
if I want it badly enough. When I start the routine of prayer and meditation,
it’s a good idea to plan to devote a small amount of time to it. I read a page
from our Fellowship’s books in the morning, and say “Thank You, God,” when I go
to bed at night. As prayer becomes a habit, I will increase the time spent on
it, without even noticing the foray it makes into my busy day. If I have
trouble praying, I just repeat the Lord’s Prayer because it really covers
everything. Then I think of what I can be grateful for and say a word of
thanks.
I don’t need to shut myself in a closet to pray. It can be done even in a room full of people. I just remove myself mentally for an instant. As the practice of prayer continues, I will find I don’t need words, for God can, and does, hear my thoughts through silence.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on November 9th Reading
Walking into the sunlight today is easy
for I know I have God with me, He helped me walk the path of my life over all
the obstacles in the way the darkness was lighting up with each step we took
together
Yes I had to search thru my past and see
all the damage I had done to the many people in my life not to mention all the
damage I did to myself, I could not talk this walk towards the light with out
His help and guidance he was showing me the way out
All of this leaded me out of my anger,
rage, sadness, frustration and a whole lost of other negative emotions the
sunlight was hard to see, my new found friends where there when I was in turmoil
they helped me move some of the obstacles in the path
Before I just ran away from my problems
mentally, morally, and physically I burnt so many bridges and alienated so many
friends and family, everyone given up on I had finally achieved what I wanted everybody
to just leave me alone so I could my thing
My self-centeredness and selfishness had
at last left me all alone, my life was a living Hell completely unmanageable I
made promises, I could never keep them, I was lying to myself, but I didn't
care my losses were to great for me to bear
I came to a point in my life where I
could no longer live with alcohol or live without alcohol. I no longer wanted
to live, wanted to die I was at a turning point in my life, I didn't know it at
the time God intervened in my ending my life
That was the last day of my living completely
in the darkness I found hope in the halls of AA after spending 32 days in a
treatment center, I was cocky and angry at everyone and everything in my life
it was everyone fault but my own
Strange that anger was the first emotion
I got back or maybe it was the last one I had to identify I was slowing
clearing up and beginning to see where I had been at fault all alone not all
the people who had tried to help me in the past
I stared to see the sunlight of the
spirit and I welcomed God, as I understand Him into my life I ask Him to take
the drink away and all the demons of my past, I finally got humble enough to truly
ask this of Him, this was the darkest moment of my life
Until He came down and held me in his
arms I know every thing was going to be alright that night I fell into a deep
sleep to awaken to a sense of well being I had never felt in my life, I was totally
at peace and filled with serenity that morning I stepped out into the sunlight
that day
God has been walking with me every day,
and as the foot prints in the sand tell me when there was only one set of foot
prints he was carrying me, I can remember Sandy and I walking on a beach one
summer day taken in the awe of the day
Walking hand in hand seemingly with out a
care in the world enjoying the beauty of the sun and ocean feeling the warmth
of His presents with us we both turned at the same time and looked back to see
how many foot prints where in the sand
God Bless you Al M
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