Daily
Reflections reading May 1st
Healing heart And Mind
Admitted
to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our
wrongs. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55
Since
it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping
people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I
think and I can experience Him by loving people and allowing people to love me.
But I can neither love nor be loved if I allow my secrets to get in the way.
It’s
the side of myself that I refuse to look at that rules me. I must be willing to
look at the dark side in order to heal my mind and heart because that is the
road to freedom. I must walk into darkness to find the light and walk into fear
to find peace.
By
revealing my secrets – and thereby ridding myself of guilt – I can actually
change my thinking; by altering my thinking, I can change myself. My thoughts
create my future. What I will be tomorrow is determined by what I think today.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on May 1st Reading
Freedom from bondage of ourselves comes
when we look over our inventory and then at ourselves in the mirror and
acknowledge that we’ve done all those things and they were wrong, I needed to
heal my heart and mind to stay sober
For me step four and five just go
together when I had to walking thru the rubble of my past I found many things
wrong with how I chose to live my life I had many defects of character I
started to become fearful wondering how anyone could accept me
Knowing what I had done growing up with
the booze as a crutch all the lying and steeling I did all the anger and rage I
had feeling less than never good enough to really let anyone know me, how could
they accept me
Well with my sponsors help I got thru
that fourth step and he told me your already half way thru you fifth step, I
had to take all this pain, shame, and remorse to another human being and share
all of it with my best friend and sponsor
But I still had reservations about some
of the stuff I had done Was not willing to share all with my sponsor, he said
we went thru most of my fourth step together you have most things written down
and God has been looking over your shoulder when you started this journey into
recovery
It is Ok for you to take it to someone
who you feel more comfortable with, so lets now go over every thing about you
and see how your attitude has already change how you have accepted your
powerlessness and became willing to go to any lengths to stay sober
As long as you are willing to go to any
length to change your life around, accepting and doing Gods will for you, it
does not matter who this other human being is, it will be the beginning of the
fifth step to tell God and another human being the exact nature of your wrongs
Doing these two-step together gave me
complete relief for the feelings of hopelessness I had true freedom from
bondage of myself thanks to God my sponsor and the 12 steps of recovery I am
now working thru the process of healing my heart and mind
The Fifth Step put me into a peaceful
place I had never been to before a place that had changed my life for ever making
my journey of recovery a fantastic adventure in finding myself God had given me
every thing I will ever need to life a happy useful life
God bless you Al M
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