Daily Reflections reading January 23rd
Having
Fun Yet?
We aren't a glum lot. If newcomers could see no
joy or fun in our existence, they wouldn't want it. We absolutely insist on
enjoying life. We try not to indulge in cynicism over the state of the nations,
nor do we carry the world's troubles on our shoulders.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS. p. 132
When my own house is in order, I find the
different parts of my life are more manageable. Stripped from the guilt and
remorse that cloaked my drinking years, I am free to assume my proper role in
the universe, but this condition requires maintenance. I should stop and ask
myself, am I having fun yet? If I find answering that question difficult
or painful, perhaps I'm taking myself too seriously-and finding it difficult to
admit that I've strayed from my practice of working the program to keep my
house in order. I think the pain I experience is one way my Higher Power has to
get my attention, coaxing me to take stock of my performance. The slight time
and effort it takes to work the program-a spot-check inventory, for example, or
the making of amends, whatever is appropriate-are well worth the effort.
The meaning of life is not being God but
trying to attune my will to Gods will for me what I have found in the AA
program is a life second to none I wanted this for me I want what they've got
hummmm! I have what they have love! life! and sobriety! enjoying Life is another one of the many
times God's love came into my life to teach me about Life's Lessons they are
new every day I wake up At first I had a real hard time with changing my way of
living the life style AA was pushing with the God thing just did not really
appeal to me I did not want God's
condemning judging ways in my life anymore
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on January 23rd Reading
I was doing fine with out Him screwing up my life so I thought. In life all I needed to do is learn how to drink the right way like social drinking, I still thought I could do thing with out anyone’s help, who needed people telling them what to do all the time
After
all I was getting enough of that at home till she kicked me, out my life was in
the crapper and still wanted it my way, how sick was I, like I could ever drink
in safety again, well life is a constant change and you change or go
Alcoholic
recovery is a link between the old ungrateful bitter me and the new happy
grateful me a gift to remember who I was and a new gift to be free, a gift to
find out who I am today, I can take time to feel my gratitude and joy knowing I
have changed to be come a better person
This
lesson we all learn entering recovery change in our lives is an absolute Growth
is optional, I have no real choice but to change I started really looking at
the fearful God issue, I started to slowly change my life style to that of a
caring and loving person, from being a selfish SOB that I was,
To
changing life habits was a very hard thing, but I did have to change and learn
new life lessons, or just die, today thru the grace of God I love the new way
of life I have, I have people to share how this new life in AA has changed
everything about me and my attitude toward my fellow man
Today
it is of love and caring about them, I have a marriage that is blessed by God,
Sandy is my angel we share or new lives together in recovery, we sponsor many people,
we enjoy the company of AA folks very much wherever we met them
Gods
way is to me the only lesson in the joy of life we need to follow, God has
given us the tools to reach out and help others, life has taught us we need to
use these tool to stay sober ourselves everyday we are given the opportunity to
learn a new lesson in life
I
am recovering from an disease of mind body and soul, rebuilding my self-esteem
one day at a time today I know I am worthwhile, loved and full of real hope,
for all this I am truly grateful I know the joys of life, I also know sorrows
of life, grateful I can see and feel the difference
I
know both of these feelings today because I do not mask them in a bottle of
booze. Joy. Happiness pain, Sorrow, Fear, anger, are all with-in me, even
today, I am grateful I have feelings because that’s life, feeling all my
feelings not just the ones that are good, helps me deal with real life today
I
trust my Higher Power is with me guiding me thru the situations of life I do
not understand, I can truly say, Thy will not mine be done, give me the gift of
understanding of what’s going on around me its not impossible to be grateful
for everything that happens to us if we look thru Gods eyes
I
have had many days it seem hard and difficult, but those days passed, I
remained grateful after they pass, I felt the love of my God who took care of
me in those times, I felt whole and grateful knowing that Gods promise of this
new life I have chosen is coming true
I
am grateful for my recovery, grateful for pain and difficulty, because of the
lessons I have learned, I have face my own mortality, a close brush with death
put the fear of dying into me, after my heart attack but with this fear a sense
of greater spirituality flows through me today
More
gratitude for being alive, problems that were so big just started to disappear,
life started again to take on new meaning, people are kinder and more sharing
than ever before
I
did not appreciate what I took for granted, until it was almost taken away from
me, because of my fears, yes every day is a gift for me, every day is a second
chance to live thru the program of recovery and for that I am the most grateful
person in the world today
God
bless Al M
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