Daily
Reflections reading March 15th
The God Idea
When we saw others solve their problems by a simple reliance upon the Spirit of the Universe, we had to stop doubting the power of God. Our ideas did not work. But the God idea did. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 52
Like a blind man gradually being restored to sight, I slowly groped my way to the Third Step. Having realized that only a Power greater than myself could rescue me from the hopeless abyss I was in, I knew that this was a Power that I had to grasp, and that it would be my anchor in the midst of a sea of woes. Even though my faith at that time was minuscule, it was big enough to make me see that it was time for me to discard my reliance on my prideful ego and replace it with the steadying strength that could only come from a Power far greater than myself
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on March 15th Reading
The God Idea
was nothing new to me I always had an idea of what God was, but my concept of
Him was not from and belief I had in him, it was the belief of my family, the old
fire and brimstone God who was always going to punish
First thing I
learned in recovery is I am not God but the idea of God of love took a lot to
see He really does exist, going along with His plans for me, this is not an
issue today, because I have a fantastic Relationship with the God of my
understanding, I am one with Him most days
But I had a big
issue with God in the beginning of my recovery did not want Him in my life, the
God of my understanding was a very vengeful, angry, God who I feared, because
of my past I thank the founders for realizing this and given us a choice of our
own higher power
I had to come
to believe in this wonderful God of AA who forgave me and saved me, what got me
here was when He intervened with my plan to end my life, it was very stupid to
try to take my life because of all the mistakes of my past riddled with
resentments
Resentments are
messages I keep sending back into my head to play over and over again till they
become anger and if I continue with them well that’s when they become rage and
I lose all I have ever gained in the fellowship and with my higher power
So for me its
best not to put the resentment into my head in the first place, instead when
some person thing or situation comes up in my life I do as it says in
acceptance, I have to look at what it is that is wrong with me and my attitude
I made many
mistakes and had harmed many people when out there drinking, holding on to theses
petty resentments, God knew how much it hurt me to keep re-living those feeling
of my past, drinking stopped the feelings for a while but even that was not
working in the end
The God idea
gave me this chance to do the right action and start over feeling my feelings,
this new found God gave me the hope and strength to begin feeling and change my
life around, this was hard because I had to feel the pain guilt and remorse of
my past
I had to feel
that pain to have any chance to learn how to live life with out booze, all the
tools I needed were in the big book and the twelve step and twelve traditions
with the help of the people in this God given fellowship I found the strength
to take the action and change my way of thinking
I know today AA
was founded on the four absolutes, of honesty, Purity, UN-Selfishness, and love
Dr Bob was great on letting people know its not a selfish program, its to be
given away YET! With in me selfishness seems to be the most prevailing defect
that I had when I got to the halls
I now could see
how my attitudes effected others in my life, I learned the truth about myself,
I made amends to friends and family, I was truly sorry that I had hurt them I
had to turn to God to learn how to find that forgiveness for myself
All the others
that I hurt had forgiven me, God had forgiven me just had to accept God's forgiveness
and start with His teachings thru the twelve steps, AA has given me God and God
has given me the meaning of life
Living it un-selfishly
helping when ever I can another sick and suffering human being like myself God
loves us all and all He asked is we learn how to love and forgive each other,
God gave us the tools but it takes the action to pick them up and use them
God Bless you
Al M
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