Daily Reflections reading April 12th
Given Up Insanity
where
alcohol has been involved, we have been strangely insane. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS,
p. 38
Alcoholism
required me to drink, whether I wanted to or not. Insanity dominated my life and
was the essence of my disease. It robbed me of the freedom of choice over
drinking and, therefore, robbed me of all other choices. When I drank, I was
unable to make effective choices in any part of my life and life became
unmanageable. I ask God to help me understand and accept the full meaning of
the disease of alcoholism.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on April 12th Reading
The Jay walker story sure is right on the money when it
comes to my insanity over drinking and expecting different results, I know I
tried many times to stop drinking it took losing my family and all my friends
to surrender
Step two tells us we could be restored to sanity, so I am
positive when I got here I was totally insane
This does not me I have been restored to sanity, but I sure
am not the same nut I was when I got here
I still have character defects and shortcoming that tend to
get in my way a lot of times in recovery
What I was first looking for when I got here sure was not a
power greater than myself, no way was there a power greater than I was, not in
this world, nope never be one this great, now that really sums up how insane I
was when drinking
I sure did not want God as I had then understood Him, no way
did I need His vengeance, He sure was not going to help the likes of me the way
I always defied Him in my drunken ways, He had already condemned me to down
under so who needed him in there life anyway
When I listen to people share they kept telling me I could
use anything as a power greater then myself
Well I was given the Gift Of Desperation and I wanted to
live and change my life around, so I started to use this Group Of Drunks I was
introduced to in my first AA meeting
They seemed to have some of that Good Orderly Direction in
there lives and I did want what they seemed to have going in their lives, they
seemed happy well I came too out of that drunken fog and I started to use that
power greater than myself
I knew He could help me recover from this disease and
restore me to some form of sanity, I also had seen people just like me using
their higher power for peace and serenity in their lives, I did manage to get
thru step two still thinking I was doing it my way still not willing to accept
God
But I soon learned that I was not God that was my real problem;
He was and is greater than ME!!!! I just really did not want to give up that
last little bit of control I had, or at least thought I had today I thank this
loving forgiven God of my understanding for saving my life
And given me what I call some degree of sanity in my
everyday life, I now have a new way of life filled with wonderful people who I
can always turn to in time of need, God truly does do His best work thru people
like us and thru this wonderful fellowship of recovery
God bless you Al M
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