Daily Reflections reading February 20th
THE GIFT OF LAUGHTER
At this juncture, his A.A. sponsor usually laughs.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS. p. 26
Before
my recovery from alcoholism began, laughter was one of the most painful sounds I
knew. I never laughed and I felt that anyone else’s laughter was directed at
me! My self-pity and anger denied me the simplest of pleasures or lightness of
heart. By the end of my drinking not even alcohol could provoke a drunken
giggle in me.
When
my A.A. sponsor began to laugh and point out my self-pity and ego-feeding
deceptions, I was annoyed and hurt, but it taught me to lighten up and focus on
my recovery. I soon learned to laugh at myself and eventually I taught those I
sponsor to laugh also. Every day I ask God to help me stop taking myself too
seriously. Page 59 Daily Reflections
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on February 20th
Reading
What’s laughter I am way to serious for that kind of stuff and sobriety is for me a very serious thing to have and keep but then for me its a lot easer to laugh than to cry, I have accepted my disease and have had that long walk into my past I found out a lot about myself
Laughter was a very painful sound when I first came into the hall I always laughed at people, I also felt everyone was laughing at me, my self-pity and anger also denied me the truth about myself at the end of my drinking I always laughed so you could not see my pain
Because in my past I used laughter as a big mask, to hide all my true feelings about what people thought of me and how I reacted to them, when laughing no one else could see how hurt I was
I always said that nothing ever could bother me, laughed real hard on the outside but Oh how I hurt on the inside I was to stubborn to admit that to anyone so I lived in a false world of hurt and pain when I got to the halls at first I laughed at, not with the people, telling their stories
I thought they were fools
telling everyone how much they hurt, and all the crap that they pulled when
drunk, well after a while I could see changes in them and I started to learn
from their stories and by God I started to laugh with them
Knowing
just how they felt and how wonderful that we all feel being sober, being able
to laugh at ourselves laughter truly is the best medicine for me today, I do
not have to hide my feelings behind it, really letting out all my pent up
feeling of my horrid past
WOW what a relief that is to be free and happy, laughing with people instead of at them, I was the fool all the time not them, they knew I to would find the secret of a good laugh I like so many others before me lived in a personal hell, where we only know the pain and misery of our pasts
Anger, fear, and depression, were our lot, life just was not fair, thank God today I can look back and remember what it was like what a fool I was and how with the help of wonderful people like you learned that I could feel free to laugh
God Bless you Al M
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