Daily
Reflections reading January 18th
Would a
Drink Help?
By going back in our drinking histories, we could show that years before we realized it we were out of control, that our drinking even then was no mere habit, that was indeed the beginning of a fatal progression. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 23
When I was still drinking, I couldn’t respond to any of life’s situations the way other, more healthy, people could. The smallest incident triggered a state of mind that believed I had to have a drink to numb my feelings. But the numbing did not improve the situation, so I sought further escape in the bottle. Today I must be aware of my alcoholism. I cannot afford to believe that I have gained control of my drinking – or again I will think I have gained control of my life. Such a feeling of control is fatal to my recovery.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on January 18th Reading
Would a
Drink Help? Hell No it would do more damage that good in anyone’s life
I can not think of one thing I do that a drink would help,
unless I wanted to return to my self centered past controlling the world and
everyone in it, just one drink would inflate my ego to the point of the good
year blimp again one is just not going to help
The affects of alcoholism, was the most destructive force in
my life, nothing was missed balance comes from emotional sobriety, I found a
resting point when I surrendered, I accepted the God of my understanding after
doing the first three steps
I begin to restore all my emotional needs, a balance to find
my God's will for me just a mere beginning walking thru the door of step three,
entered into the fearless step four where I started to look at what went wrong
in my past, looking at all I had squandered away
With my unbalanced
attitudes, now learning how to feel real feelings, real emotions, for the first time and this is where alcoholism has
affect every part of my life, family, friends, work, creditors I had to start
on a constructive path making me aware of my character defects and shortcomings
I had to look at my fears and resentment, showing me all
about my ego and low self-esteem the inventory was to look at myself, not at
others who are in my life, balance is about me I started step five, it helped
me to share what I had found with another human being, my sponsor
Sharing relieved me of the burden of going it alone, it got
me out of myself and into balance it also gave me feed back from my sponsor, to
see where I may have been telling myself lies I need to examine all my
character defects and shortcomings to see where I was wrong
This helped me not to react situations in life, but to learn
how to act upon them I had learn humility, honesty, and being responsible, I
started to assume my own responsibility for all my actions, I started to develop
an attitude of gratitude toward others I affected
Real sobriety started making that list of harms done by me,
becoming willing to make amends Having found the power greater than myself, I
found myself believing that power was God prayer and meditation gave my the
freedom to truly grow in His light, freeing me from bondage
No today a drink would not help it would take away
everything I have learned in my program why would I even think of given this
all back for a bottle and the first drink one drink is to many and if I took
the one a thousand would not be enough
I am not willing to give up all the wonderful friends I have
met in recovery for just one more drink of poison my heart full of love for
what everyone in the program has given me thru the years and I will not for one
moment in time give this all back
God bless you all
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