Daily
Reflections reading June 17th
Deep Down Within Us
We
found the Great Reality deep down within us. In the last analysis it is only
there that He may be found . . . search diligently within yourself . . . With this
attitude you cannot fail. The consciousness of your belief is sure to come to
you. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 55
It
was out of the depths of loneliness, depression and despair that I sought the
help of A.A. As I recovered and began to face the emptiness and ruin of my
life, I began to open myself to the possibility of the healing that recovery
offers through the A.A. program. By coming to meetings, staying sober, and
taking the Steps, I had the opportunity to listen with increasing attentiveness
to the depths of my soul. Daily I waited, in hope and gratitude, for that sure
belief and steadfast love I had longed for in my life. In this process, I met
my God, as I understand Him.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on June 17th Reading
Do I accept that I cannot control another person’s drinking,
well now if I did not accept I am powerless to control another, I would not be
in recovery but if I expect to recover I must be willing surrender to my
powerlessness of this disease
I would have to trust in God, as I understand Him, clean my
house and leave the control to God Anger is what kept me from the help I
needed, with anger I could hide the fear of letting anyone hurting me again, I
needed to lift the mask of anger, so I could start to work on my fear.
I know when I was a little boy I was a so angry I didn't
have a father in my life I felt sorry for myself, I wouldn't let anyone close
to me, I feared if I did they would know how much I was hurting, it was easy to
tell everyone I was all right, that I didn't need any help
I would smile on the outside, while I was crying on the
inside, no way would I let anyone know the truth about the fearful child
with-in me, he was a master at hiding who and what I really was never to find
real friends or to know what real love was until I discovered your God
Unconditionally loving and all forgiven even knowing what I
was how Deceitful I was He loved me He knew what I was going to do even before
I did, He will always let me feel the pain and loneliness when ever I chose to
walk away from Him, but when ever I start walking toward His light
I can again turn my life and will over to His care, He will
again relieve me of the pain all I need is to seek His love and forgiveness, He
will help me work for my recovery, He will help me discard all my old ways, all
I need to do is accept His gift of desperation
I let go of my anger, fear, let go of self-centeredness, of
my selfish ways, only in this way can I ever become humble and pass His gift
on, to those who still suffer from my disease, He forgave me, I must not judge
or condemn others, I must share His unconditional love
With them until they find the strength to accept His love
and forgiveness for themselves, I can share my torment and suffering with
others, so they don't need to go down the road I chose to go down, they don't
need to walk away from God as I did, I can show them the road
To recovery, where they will find God's love and protection,
we can lead them to a happiness that is real, all they need to do is let go and
trust in the people, God has put into their lives we are His best example of what
life is really all about honesty, humility, unselfishness,
With unconditional
love for everyone who follows our path out of their hell, up the twelve steps,
to true freedom and happiness, with real peace of mind.
God bless you Al M
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