Daily
Reflections reading October 7th
Daily Monitoring
Continued
to take personal inventory. . . . . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 88
The
spiritual axiom referred to in the Tenth Step–”every time we are disturbed, no matter
what the cause, there is something wrong with us”–also tells me that there are
no exceptions to it. No matter how unreasonable others may seem, I am
responsible for not reacting negatively. Regardless of what is happening around
me I will always have the prerogative, and the responsibility, of choosing what
happens within me. I am the creator of my own reality. When I take my daily
inventory, I know that I must stop judging others. If I judge others, I am
probably judging myself. Whoever is upsetting me most is my best teacher. I
have much to learn from him or her, and in my heart, I should thank that
person.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on October 7th Reading
Daily Monitoring is nothing more that
doing my tenth Step, continued to take personal inventory and when we were
wrong promptly admitted, well like all the other steps I did not like this step,
but this was made easer after all I had worked my way up to clearing out all
the wreckage of my past
Yea right overnight all cleared, I had
made amends where ever possible, why did I need this step 10 things were going
great in my life did a lot of work accepting all my faults and changing things,
I liked what I had become and saw no need to take daily inventory
Well again I made the mistake of saying
this to my sponsor I fought with him at every step I took some times I wonder
how I ever got any sobriety look back on how I did the steps, so he said you
like what you have become do you think you now have all the answers
Your never going to make another mistake
the rest of your life, well you did just make a big one with that stupid
statement and you owe AA that amends, the steps number one to twelve for a
reason it seems like you did straighten out most of your past, but still have a
lot of work to do there
Now you need to learn how to straighten
the present, our work on the 12 steps is never done until your laying perfectly
still because then your dead, now lets take this step and see what it can do
for your anger, depression, hope, love, given back what was given to you, life
is full of mistakes
We need to look at our part in every
thing we do or say, making sure we have not hurt anyone with our actions, the
difference is step ten keeps us from doing the same thing we did in our past, God
has given us the chance to make things right here and now as we do them
Step ten makes that a reality, we do not want
to return to old behavior and get lost in another bottle or get those rotten
attitudes back again steps 10 -11-12 are the living steps of our program, doing
them right will keep you from ever returning to your past
This is the first of the maintenance
steps. Once we've worked one through nine our recovery should be on firm
footing and we can truly begin getting on with life free of our addiction to
alcohol keeping Ourselves Honest is one of the purposes of step ten
Daily looking at our actions, promptly
admitting when we are wrong and to make amends for the wrongs done, lasting
recovery requires ongoing growth, we continue to develop as people, we will
make mistakes the tenth step gives us a framework
It's important to remember in the Twelve
Steps and Twelve Traditions, it says this inventory is not to be totally
negative, if we use the step to it's fullest, we also keep track of what we do
well as the mistakes we make. If, I feel I'm not getting everything done
I'll stop long enough to see what I am
getting done, most times the problem is I set myself up to do too much, when
this is true I look at what I can skip, or postpone, I do not want to wallow in
what I am do wrong, but take an honest and total look at myself
A
complete look means I see what's good about myself as well as those things I
need to change, a willingness to make an instant apology when I needed to helps
to true taking responsibility, that can make such a positive difference and
create solutions as well
God Bless you Al M
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