Daily
Reflections reading April 4th
Crying For The Moon
“This very real feeling of inferiority is magnified by his childish sensitivity and it is this state of affairs which generates in him that insatiable, abnormal craving for self-approval and success in the eyes of the world. Still a child, he cries for the moon. And the moon, it seems, won’t have him!” LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 102
While drinking I seemed to vacillate between feeling totally invisible and believing I was the center of the universe. Searching for that elusive balance between the two has become a major part of my recovery. The moon I constantly cried for is, in sobriety, rarely full; it shows me instead its many other phases, and there are lessons in them all. True learning has often followed an eclipse, a time of darkness, but with each cycle of my recovery, the light grows stronger and my vision is clearer.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on April 4th Reading
Talk about crying for the moon, my body was burnt out from
the use and abuse of alcohol I thought stopping was enough, I was instantly
cured, just stop drinking and everything will be back to normal but I soon
found out that recover overnight twisted thinking and depression
Just don’t vanish in a twinkling of the eye, I had to stop
crying and take the action on my part to find some kind of sanity, I did become
convinced that a spiritual way of living is a powerful way restore me to sane
thinking
Because I have began my recovery from serious drinking, I am
one of the miracles of recovery, this does not mean that I disregard human
health measures, like Doctors taken care of my well being, after all God has
supplied us with fine doctors, psychologists, and practitioners of various
kinds
I do not hesitate to take my problems to them today, God has
given me many miracles and I can’t knock a good doctor, or psychiatrist, their
services are often indispensable in treating us, one of the doctors who had the
opportunity of reading the big book in manuscript form
Told the founders
that the use of sweets was often helpful depending upon a doctor's advice, he
thought all alcoholics should constantly have chocolate available for its quick
energy value he added that occasionally in the night a vague craving can come
and could be satisfied by candy
I had a tendency to eat sweets and have found this practice
very helpful in my early recovery, I did take that year to find myself before
getting into a relationship with anyone, and I found that I had a real
relationship with my kids because they were a big part of my new life
Young minds are far more forgiven that adults, children seem
to better understand unconditional love my kids felt this new love I had for
them right away, we used to lay on the bed and talk about how I had changed and
how God has given us a second chance at being together
I told them the story of how God had come down and reached
into that deep hole I dug myself into He reached down gave me His hand and
pulled me out of the hole and took the desire away, I most of all remember these
slogans First Things First, Live and Let Live, Easy Does It, let go let God in
my early sobriety and they are a fantastic way to live our lives today
God bless you Al M
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