Daily Reflections reading February 8th
Convincing Mr. Hyde
Even
then, as we hew away, peace and joy will still elude us. That’s the place so
many of us A.A. oldsters have come to. And it’s a hell of a spot, literally. How
shall our unconscious–from which so many of our fears, compulsions and phony
aspirations still stream–be brought into line with what we actually believe,
know and want! How to convince our dumb, raging and hidden “Mr. Hyde” becomes
our main task. THE BEST OF BILL, pp. 42-43
Regular
attendance at meetings, service and helping others is the recipe that many have
tried and found to be successful. Whenever I stray from these basic principles,
my old habits resurface and my old self also comes back with all its fears and
defects. The ultimate goal of each A.A. member is permanent sobriety, achieved
One Day at a Time.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My
thoughts on February 8th Reading
Convincing Mr. Hyde well being a drunk I was in constant
conflict with about everyone I knew, I had all the answers to all the problems
of the world, this self righteous attitude was what got me here in the first place
bottom line is we all have a Mr. Hyde in us
Today if I am firm in what I believe is right and just, I
need not get into conflicts over things, I only need to listen to and accept
that others have different ways of expressing themselves they might even be
right and can show me where I am wrong
I need to listen with an open mind to what is being said
then I have the right to agree or disagree with what has been said, if others
differ and are steadfast in how they feel its not up to me to force my opinion
upon I just accept the impasse human beings have the right to differ
If I let Mr. Hide out of the box this would be a different
story, you had better listen to my opinions, because the great I am said so,
some times us old folks just try to run the show, at some point we all become
the bleeding deacons when we let Mr. Hyde out
Any thing is boredom in recovery, to me this is nothing more
that being complacent in my recovery peace and joy will elude me, there was a
time in my recovery that I saw nothing left to go to meetings for, my life was
going good I had some years of sobriety
I was getting bored with going to meetings hearing the same
thing over and over, watching the same people coming in and going out like ping
pong balls, I sure did complained a lot about everything and everyone I sure
was trying to convincing my Mr. Hyde
I talked about how they were just staying in their disease,
never changing to help themselves, so I started to cut back on many of my
meetings, you know got busy with life I had less time to go to meetings every
week
I did soon stop going all together, my attitude and
character defects started to return to how I was before I stopped drinking, I
was a raving manic again that’s when Mr. Hyde was in full bloom, I started to
return to my meetings for me
This time I became more active in service work, I was reach
out to help others, not sitting there and complaining about them, they were
having the same hard time I did, when I came thru the doors of AA, getting to
share with them made a difference
I started to do the very things I was taught when first
arriving at the doors of recovery, complacency has no place in my life, today I
am to busy trying to do what God intended me to do when He gave me this gift of
sobriety, I was told I need to give it back if I want to keep it
Today I am listening to God and I try to give back the love
and hope that I received when got here Gods grace was freely given to me thru
the people who were in the halls when I got here, I now understand its my turn
to give back the things I had so freely taken from others before me
I just could not hide behind that mask of fear anymore,
becoming active about my own recovery is how I convince that raging and hidden
“Mr. Hyde” with in me, God sure does works thru people in my life, I hope for
you He works with you in your new life
God bless you Al M
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