Daily Reflections reading December 6th
When The Chips Are Down
When
we developed still more, we discovered the best possible source of emotional
stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice,
forgiveness, and love was healthy, and that it would work where nothing else
would. If we really depended upon God, we couldn’t very well play God to our
fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care.
TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 116
It
has been my experience that, when all human resources appear to have failed,
there is always One who will never desert me. Moreover, He is always there to
share my joy, to steer me down the right path, and to confide in when no one
else will do. While my well-being and happiness can be added to, or diminished,
by human efforts, only God can provide the loving nourishment upon which I
depend for my daily spiritual health.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on December 6th Reading
The affects of alcoholism, was the most destructive force in
my life, nothing was missed balance comes from emotional sobriety, for me this
began taken the first three steps I found a resting point when I surrendered, I
accepted the God of my understanding
I begin to restore all my emotional needs, a balance to find
my God's will for me just a mere beginning
Where I started to look at what went wrong in my past,
looking at all I had squandered away with my unbalanced attitudes
Now I am learning how to feel real feelings, real emotions,
for the first time, this is where alcoholism has affect every part of my life,
family, friends, work, creditors, I had start on a constructive path making me
aware of my character defects and shortcomings
It was the suffering I experience as a result of my
alcoholic behavior that made me humble enough to admit and finally accept that
I was really powerless of alcohol, until I found the necessary humility
recovery was impossible for me
I had to know I could not successfully control and run my
life, I would continue to fail with out help
Understand and acceptance of my faults is being humble with
others and myself, I have to continue to look at my faults and be willing to
change them and make amends
I need to examine all my character defects and shortcomings
to see where I was wrong this helped me not to react situations in life, but to
learn how to act upon them I had learn humility, honesty, and being
responsible, I started to assume my own responsibility
For all my actions, I started to develop an attitude of
gratitude toward others I affected real sobriety started making that list of
harms done by me, becoming willing to make amends Having found the power
greater than myself, I found myself believing that power was God
Prayer and meditation gave my the freedom to truly grow in
His light freeing me from bondage I try to practice my new sobriety by reaching
out of myself, to help the still sick and suffering
Find the strength to start on their journey into a new way
of life
Today I have some degree of true humility by being humble
before God and my peers, I have had enough humiliation in all the things I did
before I found hope in AA, humility is a thing I need to practice in my living
some times this mean I have to accept criticism
For me to stay sober I need to give back what was given to
me, this is the basics of what AA is all about the fellowship, the twelve steps
and the willingness to change, for me to find this and with out the steps to
guide me into this new way of looking at myself, I would just be a sober drunk
I found the god of my understanding loving and forgiven God
who led me right into the steps
In order to use the rest of my spiritual tools I needed to
do the inventory and share it with another human being this is where the third
step pray came in to my live given myself to God
There are many ways we can enrich our spiritual journey
there is no set path we must follow in order to live a spiritual life we need
to look at them all, journaling is one of the most powerful and useful tools I
had in my spiritual toolbox when I wrote in my journals I was communicating
with myself
Putting my feelings on paper where I could not project on
them, I was sharing my thoughts goals and concerns with myself, as I dug deeply
into my mind I expressed my emotions the writing helped me to look at my
spiritual progress
Meditating made me feel closer to the God of my new
understanding and led me to my own spiritual experience the night I prayed to
God to remove the desire to drink and all that was troubling me I felt His
presents in my life that night I knew He was doing for me what I could not do
myself
I Felt child like as if He picked me up into His arms and
held me close to Him comforting me, showing me every thing is now going to be
alright He was with me, I felt this sense of peace, I call total serenity as if
the whole world was right and I could always be at peace
Although spirituality is often associated with religion, I
believe my personal spirituality was found and developed outside of religion,
in the halls of alcoholics anonymous, your God give me a new life of hope peace
and happiness
God bless you Al M
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