Daily Reflections reading July
12th
Given Up Center Stage
For without some degree of humility, no alcoholic can stay sober at all.. . Without it, they cannot live to much useful purpose, or, in adversity, be able to summon the faith that can meet any emergency. 12 & 12, p.70
Why do I balk at the word “humility”? I am not humbling myself toward other people, but toward God, as I understand Him. Humbly means “to show submissive,” and by being humble I realize I am not the center of the universe. When I was drinking, I was consumed by pride and self-centeredness. I felt the entire world revolved around me, that I was master of my destiny. Humility enables me to depend more on God to help me overcome obstacles, to help me with my own imperfections, so that I may grow spiritually. I must solve more difficult problems to increase my proficiency and, as I encounter life’s stumbling blocks, I must learn to overcome them through God’s help. Daily communion with God demonstrates my humility and provides me with the realization that an entity more powerful than I is willing to help me if I cease trying to play God myself
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on July 12th Reading
Understanding and acceptance of my faults
is being humble with others, I have to continue to look at my faults, be
willing to change them and make amends, humility is the understanding God is
now in charge of my life, everything I have is from Him
Before I found AA I humiliated myself
almost daily, my ego was like the good year blimp, I was very embarrassed and
powerless over the way I acted out when drinking I blamed everyone else for my
problems, if only they would listen to ME!!!
The Ego was crushed when they did not
accept me, then the guilt, shame, and remorse came, I had no self respect, felt
lower than pond scum, for the way I acted, how I had hurt so many
Today I have some degree of true
humility, by being humble before God and my peers, like I said I have had
enough humiliation in all the things I did before I found hope in AA, humility
is a thing I need to practice in my living
Some times this mean I have to accept
criticism, I also need to accept the praise of others, when they express
themselves with gratitude, and humility helps me accept this as part of
recovery,
I do not let my pride or ego take over, I
am recovering through the love and guidance of my Higher Power "God"
I try to keep in mind who I am, what I am, where all my hope has come from
If I forget these basics and rely on my
ego I will grow a lot closer to despair, I was afraid to show any kind of
weakness, I thought I was indestructible I could control everything, people,
places, and things all under my control
Today thru humility I have to accept my
very real and human limitations, humility is truth a humble attitude is simply
one that recognizes where my power ends and God's begins, its letting go of the
false and looking at Gods daily plan for me
I don't need to get my own way today,
nice when I do, but humility says its OK either way, God is in my heart and I
hope He is in yours I gave up center stage when I started to listen to God as I
understand Him
God bless you Al M
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