Daily Reflections reading December 25th
AT PEACE WITH LIFE
Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God’s
will into all of our activities. “How can I best serve Thee — Thy will (not
mine) be done.” ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85
I read this passage each morning, to
start off my day, because it is a continual reminder to “practice these
principles in all my affairs.” When I keep God’s will at the forefront of my
mind, I am able to do what I should be doing, and that puts me at peace with
life, with myself and with God.
© Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on December 25th Reading
Today
was a very special day for most of us celebrating this wonderful day with
family, some of us did this by sharing at meetings, about how we have found
peace and happiness, I remember a lot of Christmas’s of my past that were not
so joyous
I also
remember some of them alone and feeling hopeless, thank God meetings we
available to me even in recovery we have those times that we get lonely, things
happen and we find ourselves alone, like when my Sandy was in hospital three
Christmas and New Years in a row
All my
friends from AA were there for me, but going home at night alone, what a
"remember when" how many sleepless night I used to have, they all
came back during those times when Sandy was not home, all the kids were grown
up
I once
again I had an empty house to go home to, it felt strange after so many joyous
holidays I know Sandy felt the same way when I was in hospitals, we just grew closer
in those times apart, going home alone brought a lot of fears to our minds, was
she going to be Ok
Or she
wonder if I would be alive the next day after my heart attack, sure we trusted
in God but the moments alone did bring back fears and some anger, they stayed
with us until we could turn them over to God, just knowing He is always with us
is a comfort
But we
do need to remember He is there for us always even when we are lonely at times,
because He is with us we are never alone, God never leaves us in our time of
need, my trust in Him is not perfect, so yes at times I feel the loneliness
Today I
have a fantastic relationship with the God of my understanding, I am one with
Him most day what got me here was when He intervened with my plan to end my life,
your God of love did not let me do such a stupid thing to myself, to try to
take my life because of all the mistakes of my past
I made
many mistakes with the people in my life God did know how much it hurt me to
re-live those feeling of my past, drinking stopped the feelings for a while but
even that was not working in the end
So God
gave me this second chance to take the right action to start over, He gave me
the hope that I to could change my life around and start over again Yes this
was hard because I had to feel the pain, guilt, and remorse of my past, if I
where ever to have any chance at learning how to live life with out booze
I just
had to turn my life and will over to the care of this new loving forgiven God,
I found in the halls of AA I knew this worked in so many others, I had to try
it for myself, the promises tell me that someday I will not regret the past nor
wish to shut the door on it
All the
tools I needed were in that big book and the twelve steps and twelve
traditions, with the help of the people in this god given fellowship I found
the strength, with Gods help, to take the action to change, I found that I
could forgive myself for all the wrongs I did
I made
amends to friends and family, I was truly sorry that I had hurt them, I had to
learn how to find that forgiveness for myself, after all the others that I hurt
had forgiven, me God had forgiven me, and just who was I not to forgive myself
and move, with a new life God has given to me
So many
who came before me, just had to accept God's forgiveness and start with His
teachings thru the 12 steps, God loves us all and all He asked is we learn how
to love and forgive each other He gave us the tools
But it
takes the action to pick them up and use them, the way He has taught us to, thru
the people who came before we did, remember YOU are the most important person
in your life! Be good to yourself - strive to be happy and have a wonderful
life!
God
Bless you Al M
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