Daily Reflections reading May 17th
And For Give
Under
very trying conditions I have had, again and again, to forgive others–also
myself. AS BILL SEE IT p. 268
Forgiveness
of self and forgiveness of others are just two currents in the same river, both
hindered or shut off completely by the dam of resentment. Once that dam is
lifted, both currents can flow. The Steps of A.A. allow me to see how
resentment has built up and subsequently blocked off this flow in my life. The
Steps provide a way by which my resentments may – by the grace of God as I
understand Him -be lifted. It is as a result of this solution that I can find
the necessary grace which enables me to forgive myself and others.
©
Alcoholics Anonymous World Services
My thoughts on May 17th Reading
Resentments are always sitting there on my shoulder, waiting
to pounce on me, if I allow them to
Forgiveness is an act from my heart, to help me heal from
all my pain and hurt feelings, when I forgive I refuse to be damaged by the
wrong doings of myself, or others in my life
To not forgive is resentment and I am the victim of that
resentment, because the victim is always the one who carries the resentment,
the ones who I resent usually doesn't know and doesn't care about my resentment
unless I tell then in a fit of rage
And we all know that leads us into our addictions, to hang
on to my resentment is to poison my heart and turn me bitter towards everyone,
resentments steal all the joy out of my life I could have, if I only I practice
forgiveness
Because of resentments in my life, I victimized myself while
others went their merry way, it takes time to learn how to forgive others when
the anger, fear, and hurt is so bad, but forgiveness is what I needed to move
on with my life, to let go of the pain
Resentments always take away from me, they never give me
peace or contentment, resentments keep me in a past that can never be changed,
repaired, or re-lived, resentments keep me in my mind to be mugged every time I
go there alone
Resentment will always keep me from appreciating the beauty
of my life, they stop me from hearing the loving voices of my new friends and
family, I decided to forgive others, as well as myself, for mistakes real or
imagined done to me
Trusting in God's will for me today and try to carry this
out, I had to learn how to forgive it was a choice not to resent others, this
freed my mind and heart for the real work, my life can still go unfulfilled if
I let resentments consume my emotions
I have a program of recovery that helped me develop a
forgiving heart to find the peace love and joy that are part of God's will for
me, I always have the choice to be closed minded about everything that comes up
or I can choose to be honest kind loving and live with some serenity
To not forgive whatever the offense is, will put a dark
shade on God's light, when I harbor ill feelings toward others I become stuck
in the darkness, today I express my love through forgiveness and I feel God's
love in return
Until I could learn love and acceptance for everyone in my
life, I wasn't able to freely love and accept anyone else in my life,
Forgiveness of others and myself is a gift to me from God, what I do with this
love and forgiveness is my gift back to Him
God bless you Al M
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