Daily Reflections reading January 1st
I AM A MIRACLE
The central
fact of our lives today is the absolute certainty that our Creator
has entered into our hearts and lives in a way, which is
indeed miraculous. He has commenced to accomplish those things for us, which we
could never do by ourselves. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 25
This truly is a fact in my life today,
and a real miracle. I always believed in God, but could never put that belief
meaningfully into my life. Today, because of Alcoholics Anonymous, I now trust
and rely on God, as I understand Him; I am sober today because of that!
Learning to trust and rely on God was something I could never have done alone.
I now believe in miracles because I am one!
My
thoughts on January 1st Reading
I trust God, as I understand Him, I am sober today because of His grace, learning to rely on God was something I could never have done alone, I believe in miracles because I am one!
When I drank I sure did become anti-social, I
had that genius for getting drunk at exactly the wrong time, I just could not
put it down
I went to the doctor not telling him the truth
about how much I drank, he prescribed those wonderful 10 mg valiums. But like a
good alkie once I drank I was off and running. Now washing down the Valium,
wondered why it was virtually impossible to stop
I sure do believe my main problem centered in
my mind and body, to this day I still do not know why I would keep doing the
same things over and over again, insanity? All I really know is, I lost control
of my drinking
I did pass into that state where that most
powerful desire to stop drinking was of absolutely no avail I had lost the
power of choice in drink, my will power was non-existent when it came to stop
drinking even when I knew it was destroying my life
When this thinking was established in me, I did
placed myself beyond any human aid, with out my going to treatment I would have
gone insane or died an alcoholic death if I did not take my own life, I know
today there is a solution
The steps, self-searching, losing the false
pride, the looking at my character defects and shortcomings I had seen it
working in others, I too come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of
life as I had been living it
There was nothing left for me, but to pick up
the simple kit of spiritual tools, I found this power greater than myself, the
God of the people who came before me, soon to become the God of my own
understanding, all loving and forgiven
I have had the deep and spiritual experience
six months into my recovery, this did change my whole attitude toward life,
toward God, the fellowship, all my friends and family, toward the new way of
life living in God's world
This reading: “The central fact of our lives today is the absolute
certainty that our Creator has entered into our hearts and lives in a way which
is indeed miraculous. He has commenced to accomplish those things for us which
we could never do by ourselves”
I do believe there is no middle-of-the-road
solution, I was in that position where life was becoming impossible, I had
passed into the region of no return through human aid; I did have those two
alternatives like those before me
One was to go on to the end, trying to blot out
the consciousness of the situation the other was to accept spiritual help, I
did felt the gates of hell had closed on me with a clang, a spiritual solution
was the only way out, the twelve steps opened that door and let me walk out
into step three
From the first paragraph of step three “Practicing Step Three is like the opening of a door which to all appearances is still closed and locked, all we need is a key and the decision to swing the door open, there is only one key and it is called willingness“
Once unlocked by willingness the door opens
almost of itself and looking through it we shall see a pathway beside which is
an inscription. It reads: "This is the way to a faith that works."
Trying to understand who God is
I was told He was inside me, a new way of life
was laid at my door and the willingness to walk thru was given to me new hope
came to me, the desire to drink was lifted by God as I know understand him, I
had started my journey to sobriety
This was only a mere beginning to the rest of
the step in recovery, the door opened into step four and with new hope I could
start doing that inventory, with out anymore fear of my past, but with a lot of
hope and love in my future
I thank God that he lead me thru this door of
step three to His way of life, I hope you all can walk thru that door to the
beginning of your recovery, by walking thru that door of step three into step
four I became just one more recovery miracle, trudging that road to
happiness
